mon deck gagne de vie

The primary combo is sanguine bond, lifelinkers, and life gainers to slowly bleed an opponent to death. If that is not enough souverain félidar is present to assure victory from having accumulated enough life. C'est pourquoi j'ai pensé que c'est le mieux idée que Sorin, Ajani, et Elspeth ont uni ses forces.

Sorin can cut down an opponents life significantly if necessary. Ajani grants life gain besides pump action to all your creatures. Then Elspeth is a rich source of blockers who are destined to sacrifice themselves and become welcome visitors for the Deathgreeter. That is aside from the obvious advantage of Elspeth' second skill, she also combos with the Soul Warden.

I have infest to get rid of pesky birds of paradise, lotus cobras, elite vanguards, and noble hierarches.

les alpenteurs (6)

2 sorin markov 3BBB
2 ajani crinièredor 2WW
2 elspeth chevalière errante 2WW

les créatures (22)

4 soul warden (1/1) W
4 deathgreeter (1/1) B
4 drudge skeleton (1/1) 1B
4 vampire nighthawk (2/3) 1BB
4 mur de vénération (1/6) 3W
2 souveraine félidar (4/6) 4ww

les éphémeres/enchantements/rituels (10)

2 sanguine bond 3BB
2 consume spirit X1B
2 infest 1BB
2 soul's grace 1W
2 righteousness w

les terrains (24)

4 crypt d'agadeem
4 marsh flats
8 marais
8 plaines

foudroyeur de monde

je pense des améliorations suivants pour mon deck de blanc soldats. le monument eldrazi, foudroyeur de monde, emeria la ruine céleste. le monument eldrazi fait nos creatures plus fort, ont le vol, et sont indestructibles. wow YES?!?!?! il serait très utile pour mon deck. mais il a besoin de sacrifice par tour. et c'est où elspeth ou l'ange d'emeria entre. ils créent tous les deux des créatures.

avec emeria la ruine céleste, nos créature qui ont mort peuvent revenir dans le champ bataille. GENTIL eh!!!

avec le foudroyeur de monde, il s'occupe des créatures gigantesques et petits tous les deux comme des anges pourfendeur, des nxyathides, des anges de gracebataille, des noble hiérarches, des lotus cobras et les autres. il peut s'occuper aussi des terrains dangereux et des enchantements fatals. et depuis mes sortes sont facile à jeter. il serait à mon avantage.

finalement, si j'ai eu des terrains qui rapportent des terrains de base (forêts, îles, montagnes, marais et plaines). c'est possible que je peux insérer un ange d'emeria qui crée des oiseaux créatures. une alternative à elspeth et ses soldats.

rationalhero.com

These questions were asked from www.rationalhero.com. A tribute site to my country's national hero. José Rizal.

1. How do you feel now about your religion? Compare this to how you felt about it as you were growing up and vs. what you were taught.

i do not have any religion at this time. growing up i was taught to fear existence and to fear life. i was taught to memorise long winded prayers i barely took into heart. i lived in fear and guilt as i was taught self hate and superstition.

2. What brought about your new view of the church or its priests? Did you feel any guilt over your decision?

although i was born into catholicism, i manage to break away from it after years of learning about science, philosophy and especially history. if people knew more about these three things, then i'd think religion will play a lesser role in religious people's lives. i now live my life to the fullest without feeling guilty about it.

3. What do you think about the Church's meddling in state issues such as the Reproductive Health Bill and the Magna Carta of Women?

i believe the church is entitled to its own opinion about these issues. what they are not entitled to is deliberate misinformation and fear mongering. it is thus fustrating when the media or society itself is indifferent about it. as we have learned from history whenever any church dictates over the state, civil liberties disappear. scientific and social progress slows or worse halted. The RH bill will stir us in the right direction to manage the population individually without coercion. While the magna carta of women eliminates discrimination against women.

4. Anything else you might want to add about your insights on church, religion and the meddling modern day Padre Damasos in our midst?

I think the church should be treated, meaning taxed and audited, like any other business. And the institution must be held liable for criminal offenses like hiding a criminal (pedophiles). how much of the money donated really goes to charity?

à la dixième place

j'ai terminé à la dixième place au tournoi magic l'assemblée le vendredi passé en utilisant mon deck de blancs soldats. mon score était 3 victoires et 1 défaite. je me suis l'amusé bien. j'ai bataillé contre ...

1. des vampires (2-0). les aéronautes kor qui volent ont fait la plus grande partie pour gagner la victoire. j'ai sollicité l'aide de blancs chevaliers de mon réserve pendant le 2ème jeu. et bien sur, il y avait aussi elspeth tirel, l'alpenteuse championne et sa 2ème competence en particulier.

2. le naya avec des créatures gigantesques (2-0). dans la bataille, mon adversaire a pris des temps pour s'établir. il utilisait un cobra de lotus pour qu'il jetait des sorts rapidement mais mes blancs soldats étaient plus vite.

3. le jund avec des dragones massives (0-2). mes armées se sont écrasé sous la puissance de 2 dragons frères de couvée.

4. et finalement, contre des predateurs brutals de garruk languebestion, un alpenteur sauvage qui utilise la magie verte. encore une fois, il y avait elspeth qui a utilisé sa 2ème competence, qui envoyé ses soldats en volant dans les air. j'ai achevé mon adversaire via l'honneur des purs et la promesse du conquérant. imagine 6 2/2 soldats. ;p

les vampires

les vampires vs bant exalté

1er jeu (2 - 0). elspeth chevalière érrante commande ses blanches soldats à proteger les citoyens de la ville d'une colonie de vampires qui se sont installé près de là.

un escorte intrépide, avec une noble hiérarche sur son coté, a dirigé l'enquete. mais les vampires se sont défendu. un par un, chaque vampire a tombé jusqu'à rafiq aux innombrables a apparu. et puis elspeth a commandé rafiq à achèver son rival, le seigneur de vampire. rafiq a chargé et le seigneur était détruit.

les vampires vs les soldats blancs

2ème jeu (1 - 0). les vampires ont envahi une autre ville. 2 maitres d'epée du kazandou se sont levé pour la défendre. ils se sont levé à la barrière pendant que les mort-vivantes ont amassé leur forces dehors.

le maitre piquier était appelé pour évaluer la situation. tous les soldats étaient dynamisé mais ils ont attendu jusqu'à la maitresse aux crochets kor a arrivé, et elle a tiré impérieusement sur le seigneur des vampires qui a tombé abasourdi sur la terre. tous les soldats ont chargé pour faire leur attaque final. les vampires étaient vaincu.

l'armée de la lumière a gagné le jour! YOUPI!!

i snapped

i had another episode of i'm not sure what it is. panic?? i needed to be alone one second and i hated being alone the next. i relied upon friends in this time of need. unfortunately (or fortunately as we shall see, maybe in the future) noone was available to keep me company. noone as in the only person i desperately want to be around with was not available. this panic drove me to the harsh truth that taz is never available at all. at anytime. i need to accept that ...

things have been different from the onset when i used to receive constant SMS and pokes. though i was vulnerable from having just ended a relationship. i genuinely felt a connection. i fell for it completely. i didn't care about what's right and wrong. i loved the attention. i don't think i had been lacking in showing my interest. but the response is clear as day. l'halflin is just not into me. sigh ..

i snapped. i refused to be part of it any longer. i was furious at taz (who in retrospect is blameless) and at myself (the only person who deserves it). i felt abandoned. a little insulted. why? when i dont have the right to feel this way. maybe i have started to develop some pride. it could also be a wake up call. this is wrong in the sense that i made someone a priority and i don't get it back. i just felt i deserved better. someone who is devoted to me as i am to them. otherwise it would be just a waste of our time. isn't it?

this is exactly what my friends warned me about. i am out of control and irrational. i can't wait forever nor demand for an answer. again assuming there even exist an outcome (favorable or unfavorable). but the truth is .. i already know the answer.

who knows of the future. i might feel differently about it as i often do. i might able to let my emotions go or if i have better control over them. as a consolation though, i relish the fact that taz is happy and taken cared of. doesn't really need me. and there is something about that feeling of being needed. just i used to worry a lot but maybe it was never my place.

sigh .. you are sad man max .. très triste ..

mon jeu de cartes des soldats

zendikar est arrivé! et alors, j'ai essayé de faire mon propre jeu de cartes qui s'appelle soldats kor ... qu'en pensez-vous? je suis seulement un debutant alors pardonne-moi si le jeu n'est pas si bon. ^_^

les arpenteurs) 4
2 ajani crinièredor
2 elspeth chevalière errante

les créatures) 26
4 avante-guard d'élite
4 aéronaute kor
4 maitresse aux crochets kor
4 maitre d'épée de kazandou
3 maitre armurier vétéran
3 forgeuse d'épées vétérane
2 capitaine des veilleurs
2 maitre piquier rhox

les enchantements) 4
4 l'honneur des purs

les éphémères) 8
4 braver les éléments
4 chemin vers l'exil

les terrains) 21
4 scalding tarn,
1 emeria, la ruine céleste
16 plaines

voici une autre liste que j'ai trouvé des forums de www.mtgsalvation.com. ça m'interesse l'usage des soldats de kor, des équipements et le maitre d'armement. allez les kors!!

GhostDad of
Ascended Mage
Join Date: Apr 2009
Location: Jakarta
Posts: 328

White Kors
Creatures (21)
4 Armament Master
4 Kor Duelist
3 Kor Cartographer
3 Kor Outfitter
4 Kor Skyfisher
3 Kor Hookmaster

Equipments (12)
3 Bonesaw
2 Grappling Hook
3 Explorer's Scope
2 Spidersilk Net
1 Whispersilk Cloak

Instant and Sorcery (5)
3 Conqueror's Pledge
2 Landbind Ritual

Lands (23)
3 Emeria, the Sky Ruins
20 Plains Sideboard (15)
4 Devout Lightcaster
4 Path to Exile
3 Gorgon's Flail
4 White Knight

Sideboard (15)
4 Devout Lightcaster
4 Path to Exile
3 Gorgon's Flail
4 White Knight

une ville sous-marine

it began as a pleasant cool morning. it was the kind of morning that would have been perfect minus the fact that i didnt have anyone to share it with. rain was pouring outside, urging me to go back to bed. i resisted the lull and picked up my phone hoping that i'd have some messages. which i did. yey! waking up with my bed empty didn't seem as bad after all.

i heard children who turned out to be grown ups playing in the rain, in the puddles that have formed outside. i did not put any more thought into it and turned on my game of civilization. i was playing egypt against france, england, the mongols, and others. i was at war with france and my armies have occupied most of their former territory. it was a matter of turns before all of france would be under egyptian rule.

taz me pressait pour aller chez lui. il a dit que nous allons voir des films ou jouer magic l'assemblée. bien sur, je ne pourrais pas le refuser. evidemment, je l'aime bien et donc, il a de l'influence complète sur moi. alors, j'en suis allé.

it was going to be an adventure. i wore the most simple of outfits i could find. big white shirt, shorts, and my trusty sandals. i intended to tread the storm on foot and get to my destination one way or another. i expected to get wet but i didn't expect to be waist deep in floodwater. i walked all the way from my apartment to my friend's apartment. my legs were weary by the time i was at pasong tamo which i considered to be the mid point. it took me half of the day to get to where i am going. walking on floodwater was exhausting. i even developed a way to counter the pain on my wearied legs by relying on buoyancy which did most of the work. but still ..

many people were outside in the rain. playing with their makeshift flotation devices. swimming, wandering about. half naked men heckling rain drenched women. old, rich, poor, young or like me who are just outside observing an unusual event. a part of me did want to give up, but i thought it's a way proving myself.

it was also fun to listen to the people make light of the matter, as something only we as a people, to the best of my knowledge, are capable of.

-------------------

i spent the next day with friends playing magic, talking, eating. remind me to return the favor next time.

when i got back to my own apartment the next day. i found flood water has found its way into the foyer and part of my bedroom. inches away from the power, my fridge, the computer, and my clothes. lucky eh?!

rétro-ingénierie

c'est ma première tache dans ma nouvelle compagnie. au debut, je ne sais pas ce que je dois faire. je suis habitué à developper des logiciel plutot que le traitement inversé. heureusement, j'ai trouvé des outils qui m'aident. j'utilise .NET Reflector de Red Gate pour désassembler l'App_code, l'App_GlobalResources, et l'App_Web. et puis, j'ai utilisé un accessoire qui s'appelle FileDisassembler qui m'a donné le code source. VOILA! youpi!

sa lab life. medyo zero. i don't know what to think or feel at the moment. i enjoy the stolen moments. that's all it is. i haven't got any luck in the dating scene. i chat with several names from all sorts of sites. so far, i haven't enountered anyone i am interested in and who is interested back. les recherches se poursuivent ... ^_^

12ème ciné-europa

J'ai copié la liste d'un autre site par Philbert Ortiz Dy. Alors. Merci à lui! le seul problème qu'il n'y a personne qui va avec moi. waaah T_T :(

Programme De Ciné Europa:

11 SEPTEMBRE Vendredi

12h00 Freigesprochen

14h30 Kærlighed på film

17h00 S certy nejsou zerty

19h30 De Laatste Zomer

21h00 Joulutarina

12 SEPTEMBRE Samedi

12h00 Toi et Moi

14h00 Die Welle

16h30 I Demoni di San Pietroburgo

19h00 Alles is Liefde

21h30 E pericoloso sporgersi

13 SEPTEMBRE Dimanche

12h00 [Rec]

14h00 Mein name ist Eugen

16h30 The Duchess

19h00 Freigesprochen

21h30 Tmavomodry svet

14 SEPTEMBRE Lundi

12h00 Kærlighed på film

14h30 Joulutarina

16h30 Toi et Moi

18h30 Die Blindgänger

20h30 I Demoni di San Pietroburgo

15 SEPTEMBRE Mardi

12h00 Zoop in Zuid Amerika

14h15 Orient Express

16h45 [Rec]

18h30 Grabben I graven bredvid

20h30 Mein name ist Eugen

16 SEPTEMBRE Mecredi

12h00 The Duchess

14h30 Freigesprochen

16h30 S certy nejsou zerty

19h00 Kærlighed på film

21h30 Joulutarina

17 SEPTEMBRE Jeudi

12h00 Toi et Moi

14h00 Die Welle

16h30 I Demoni di San Pietroburgo

19h00 Alles is Liefde

21h30 E pericoloso sporgersi

18 SEPTEMBRE Vendredi

12h00 [Rec]

14h00 Grabben I graven bredvid

16h00 Mein name ist Eugen

18h30 The Duchess

21h00 Freigesprochen

19 SEPTEMBRE Samedi

12h00 S certy nejsou zerty

14h30 Kærlighed på film

17h00 Joulutarina

19h00 Toi et Moi

21h00 Die Blindgånger

20 SEPTEMBRE Dimanche

12h00 I Demoni di San Pietroburgo

14h30 Zoop in Zuid Amerika

16h45 Orient Express

19h30 [Rec]

21h30 Mein name ist Eugen

les philippines comme une civilisation

si les philippines étaient une partie du jeu civilisation 4, on aurait:

civilisation: les philippines
technologies de départ: pêche, agriculture
unité unique: katipunero ou OFW
capitale: manille
dirigeants: josé rizal, cory aquino
traits de caractères: josé rizal (charismatique, philosophe), cory aquino (charismatique, spirituelle)
doctrine preferée: josé rizal (représentation), cory aquino (représentation)

mais qu'en penses-tu?

achat et vente

BUYING OR TRADING

honor of the pure
white knight
ajani vengeant
ajani goldmane
sarkhan vol
maelstorm pulse
knight of the white orchid
captain of the watch

SELLING

ball lightning - 200
darkwater catacombs - 75
merfolk sovereign - 150
time warp - 150
cemetery reaper - 250
vampire nocturnus = 100
earthquake - 75
goblin chieftain - 150
siege-gang commander - 150
elite vanguard - 75
lightning bolt - 50
duress - 40
doom blade - 25
awakener druid - 50
elvish archdruid - 250
master of the wild hunt - 150
overrun - 50
coat of arms - 100
pithing needle - 400
dragon skull summit - 400
baneslayer angel - 500
drowned catacomb - 300
twincast - 150
harms way - 30
sleep - 40
serra angel - 40
sign in blood (foil) - 80
planar cleansing (foil) - 200
birds of paradise (foil) - 800
birds of paradise - 400
pyroclasm - 40
hypnotic specter - 150
liliana vess - 250

déroutant

papa is worse. i walked up to him and he doesn't appear to recognize me. he stares in space, his mouth open and saliva drips from it. his eyes looked dreary. his face hung on his skull like a wet piece of clothing. that's what happens when you do not eat much for three weeks. he REALLY lost weight.

i waved a hundred peso bill and pretend that it's a thousand. "pa! ito isang libo yan ah! pagkasyahin niyo na yan sa buong linggo ah" as a joke (as usual) to my parents. he doesn't respond. he continues to stare in space. i hear stories. that he would walk around naked. or he would throw food and insults at mama. then somehow able to restrain himself when people are around. old people could be quite cruel. the father we knew is gone. there is a possibility that it is dementia which leads to alzeimers. who knows what it is. they're taking him to a neurologist soon.

i have submitted my resignation letter early this week. work continues to be a thankless job. a few more weeks of unnecessary setbacks (aka buillshit ^_^). that's all there is.

à cote d'amour. je continue à être troublé. l'amour est déroutant (confusing) à moi. l'amour libre, même plus T_T. i am only ok when i am around you. i miss you terribly. i try to make do with what i have. a text here. a stolen glance there. a brief hug here. a small gift there. a chore left in the wee hours of the morning. i am consumed.

it is like college all over again. but i don't see a future for me. i wish the mother ship comes and picks me up. since pluto is no longer a planet. quadrant 4, where the borg lives, becomes an appealing prospect instead. the borg - sans emotions. i see it now. in the farthest regions of space. what can someone like me do. i have nothing ... je suis rien ... (just kidding). i know that it is only a matter of letting it go. j'ai récemment trouvé un forêt des ours en ligne. peut-étre je vais trouver quelqu'un là.

une boite de trente-six boosters

parang gusto ko tuloy gumawa ng bagong deck white weenie and elf deck. isip isip ..

une boite de trente-six boosters produit les cartes suivantes:

ball lightning, darkwater catacombs, honor of the pure, merfolk sovereign, time warp, cemetery reaper, vampire nocturnur, earthquake, goblin chieftain, siege-gang commander, elite vanguard, white knight, lightning bolt, duress, doom blade, awakener druid, elvish archdruid, master of the wild hunt, overrun, coat of arms, pithing needle, dragon skull summit, baneslayer angel, drowned catacomb, twincast, harms way, sleep, serra angel, sign in blood (foil), planar cleansing (foil), birds of paradise (foil), earthquake, pyroclasm

hypnotic specter - c'est pour un ami (bon anniversaire!)
liliana vess - L'ARPENTEUR YEHEY!!

twin sanity vs bant exalté

twin sanity deck

21 islands, 4 shelldock isles, 4 plumeveils, 4 sanity grindings, 4 twincasts, 4 cryptic commands, 4 dream fracture, 4 sleep, 4 time warp, 2 broken ambitions, 1 cancel, 4 jace beleren

sideboard

4 wall of frost, 4 memory plunder, 1 oona queen of fae, 4 flashfreeze, 4 vendilion cliques

pneu rechapé

1st round - the mind mage gets pummeled by the divine power of the angels summoned by the invoquer de bant exalté. with jenara l'asura (deva) de guerre, as sole champion, leading the assault, bearing the courage and hope of her armies, she flies across the battlefield and into victory

2nd round - the mind mage manages to wipe the invoquer de bant exalté's mind. one by one, each of the divine champions wastes away to oblivion until nothing were left save their silent and empty screams.

3rd round - the bant exalté armies successively bombards the mind mage's defenses in the artic. l'arpenteur bleu qui s'appelle jace beleren secretly infiltrates the enemy siege camps and deprives it's champions of their sanities (as it is quite well known in the universe that jace shuns loss of life).

moving forward

i couldn't sleep as usual without exhausting myself from ice cream, dota, cigarettes (very bad) and civilisation. i kept thinking of my obsession and how to move on from it. i saw angels in america again which gave me some good advice on how one should think about one's needs. first and foremost. i couldn't make myself believe despite the awful truth staring back at me. that it wasn't the same for you. like that mormon republican who thought that he was in love with someone he barely knew for three weeks. i am forced to repeat myself. move on max.

i did not fully understood what i was getting myself into. although a beeming red flag waved at me when i made my approach. most of my friends warned me against it and naturally i didn't listen. i didn't want to make the same mistake when i waited for things to happen rather than taking control of things. i reflecting if i feel any regret now that its over. that maybe it was better if i didnt give in. it was a risk i had to take. i took it with open arms. sans regrets.

it is at times like this when i miss k terribly. k was someone i had. out of all the people in the planet. here was someone who wanted to be with me. sigh.

k sent me a short pm the other day. it was good to hear from him even though we didn't actually talk about anything. it was about that thing he owed me. i didnt care anymore. i just want to move on. i didn't want to deal with it so i cut the messaging short with some lame excuse about playing dota. which i did do.

i am also getting worked up from anticipation. less than a week from today i'd be passing a letter. and a month after that, i'd be free from the craziness. i'd say the system their using depends on heroes under the guise of being more but unnecessarily strict.

this by far has been the most mind boggling company i have ever worked for. and i have been in the industry for more than a decade now.

1. unreasonable schedules
2. discouraged code reviews
3. scandals when bugs are found
4. a disputable sense of quality control
5. unappreciated efforts
6. unsustainable pressure level

vivre sans regret

ah oui .. les choses qu'on fait pour l'amour n'ont pas des limites. hier soir, je suis allé à QC près de UST pour récupérer quelque cartes qui manquent de son deck. j'ai pensé qu'il serait te faire heureux mais apparemment ça n'est pas marche. sigh. ok lang max. tu as fait de ton mieux. je veux être le meilleur ami qu'il peut compter.

je veux dire que je veux vivre sans la crainte d'aimer et sans rien attendre en retour. but this is bullshit. i do hope for something (anything). it is for this that i need to compensate for my deficiency in youth and lack of pleasant apperance when i serve the one i care for. the beast serving belle. wether or not it is returned is no longer a matter of importance when living without regret. i make the best i can. my new motto. ^_^ i try to put it out of my mind and in so doing i am probably doing what i was preaching earlier.

j'ai essayé de sortir avec des autres gens mais jusqu'ici je n'ai pas de la chance. qui veut sortir avec quelqu'un comme moi .. sigh T_T ...

itinéraire

m2010 changements regles

1) Mulligans simultanés
2) Modifications de terminologie
2A) Champ de bataille
2B) Lancer, jouer et activer
2C) Exil
2D) Début de l'étape de fin
3) Réserves et brûlure de mana
3A) Vidage des réserves de mana
3B) Suppression de la brûlure de mana
4) Propriété des jetons
5) Les blessures de combat n'utilisent plus la pile
6) Contact mortel
7) Lien de vie

des amis arriveront de cebu à manille à la fin du mois d'aout. nous allons à bagiuo. voici le itinéraire. qu'est-ce qui va se passer vers 20h00 - un orgy? ? héhé JOKE!

decks de champions: rang 1

je regardais des decks en tête 8 dans le monde 2008. j'ai trouvé un deck fée qui a mis rang 1. probablement, mon deck de rêve. comme tu vois, le deck utilise un autre arpenteur: jace beleren.

et bien sur, c'est une autre grande façon pour apprendre la langue. voici des verbes et des noms que j'ai appris jusqu'a présent.

LES VERBES

piocher une carte = to draw

engager les terrains = to tap lands

arriver en jeu = to come into play

acquérir le contrôle de la créature = to gain control of the creature

contrecarrer le sort ciblé = counter target spell

se défausser de cette carte = to discard this card

infliger X blessure = to deal X damage

mélanger votre bibliothèque - to shuffle your library

confronter un adversaire = clash with an opponent?

LES NOMS

l'entretien = upkeep

la réserve = mana pool

le cimitière = graveyard

jusqu'a la fin du tour = until end of turn

Rang (1) Couleurs (bleu, noir) Joueur (Antti Malin) Deck (Fées)

Créatures :
4 Clique brumelien
2 Clique Vendilion
2 Semeuse de tentation
4 Farfadette cafouillesort

Sorts :
4 Âpre fleur
4 Commandement cryptique
4 Saisie des pensées
1 Terror
3 Ambitions brisées
4 Distorsion d'angoisse
3 Retrait d'âme

Terrains :
4 Mutecaveau
4 Rivière souterraine
4 Ruines englouties
4 Vallon retiré
1 Conseil des faeries
6 Island
2 Marais

Réserve :
2 Jace Beleren
2 Archimage du Vallon d'Elendra
1 Fracassement cérébral
1 Semeuse de tentation
4 Gel immédiat
4 Infestation
1 Contemplation

bon anniversaire maman!

incident at my parents. papa took a walk around and fell i am guessing. it was hours before some samaritan brought him home. he is so weak now. unable to move an inch, unable to focus, and talk as he used to. he's exhibiting very odd behaviour. odd even for him.

i took a few smokes around the corner after a rather depressing epiphany. when i got back. i saw a couple of guys at the gate with papa leaning on to one of them. i knew something happened and hurried. they told me everything. i thanked the guys for bringing papa home. i wish i could have done more like pay for gas. but it dawned on me late the proper etiquette. i slowly walked papa inside giving him bits of encouragement. but i am genuinely worried. i think it is only a matter of time now.

it started a week or 2 ago when the family had lunch at the festival mall to celebrate my brother's birthday. i told mama that we have to prepare for the worst. i strongly feel this is it. i am not sure how i feel about it. i am sure of one thing. i would feel sorry for mama because i know she loves him very much. to us children though, we grew up while he was abroad and so we failed to create that bond.

mama and my sister ruth went to a wedding dinner today at the manila hotel (wow sosyal! joke!! héhé). it was great to see them all made up. i don't get to see them like this everyday.

j'aime bien ma famille .. sigh

i picked up a book isaac asimov robot series. so it should be an interesting read for the next few days at the least. i don't get to read much these past few weeks. but i think i have time again.

i liked his ideas on the distinction between robot-menace and robot-pathos. astroboy would be robot-pathos. while robocop would be robot-menace? héhé. but what about borgs? borgs aren't exactly evil the way we normally think of evil. borgs want to improve the lives of assimilated species. etc ..