vendredi, décembre 24
[tante patsie] nous avons visité tante patsie (patricia sales), la cousine de mère. elle est une fille de domingo sales. le frère de cenon sales. mon grand-père. elle habite à pacita deux. i could tell she was pretty when she was younger. i got hold of some of her pictures. since domingo was the youngest of the saleses. cenon the oldest. tita patsies generation were noticeably younger than my mothers. and as a consequence knows less of the past. ma mère et moi vont aller tante esther à demain. tante esther est une femme de louie. un fil de felix. un autre frère de cenon. mon grand-père. there were several interesting stories. sibling rivalries which have turned really BAD. gossiping. intrigue. over things which in my mind are nothing but temporary. i got new old pictures i can use for my family tree project. on the way home, i felt sad about not being able to meet these people. who have died before us. much more to those who we have met and are now gone. not unless there was an after life which brings together all of these unanswered questions. yearning to learn what it was .. could heaven have been invented from such questions .. a fitting climax. wishing it were all true .. bientot, je demande à ma mère. how my lola felipa and lola natividad die? (pendant la seconde guerre du monde). elle m'a dit. we dont know why they didnt leave manila and took shelter elsewhere. the house they were living in had a bomb shelter. and yet they werent using it at that fateful day. a bomb crashed through the roof. lola natividad was in her bedroom. she was hit in the stomach. mama was playing beside lola felipa. lola felipa was hit in the head. tito boy was breast feeding. lolo juan was in the same room. he was hit in the stomach. only mama, tito boy, and tita ines, hit in the shoulder, survived. [cebu forum] if there were other things that need done about cebu traffic .. they are (1) sidewalks and over passes. banning street vendors that litter garbage, beggars, "tambays", mothers carrying month old babies, and citizens littering ... (2) car horn law. ive see car horns, numerous times, used to harass pedestrians and other vehicles (3) sometimes there are no lanes. and vehicles changing lanes without signaling. (galit pa sila na yung nagkamali) (4) there should be an explicit speed limit (5) a bike lane! .. (6) squatters .. dont let whats happened to manila happen to cebu .. or has it already. where squatters have taken over the railways, the government, the sidewalks, the parks .. etc .. [swimming pool] i always disliked the beach. the sand going and staying in places i dont want them in. although, its nice to wake up to one. not swim in it. i am glad they have places now which emulate the waves and make the pools seem natural without the danger of getting stung by a jelly fish or eaten by sharks. here is a picture of me, mon frere, and mon neveu swimming in one. [tsunamis] (argument1) où sont ces gens maintenant? people who annoy me with their jesus-loves-me bullshit, now when it doesnt make sense ... are these people quiet because they secretly feel people in affected areas deserved it? isnt it the best time to teach these heathens the truth. going to hell because they worship the wrong gods. but why make an exception? of everyone thinking theyre chosen. their god is the one TRUE god. me me me me. we couldnt get more arrogant than by making ourselves THE chosen people. i didnt see allah, jesus, sto nino, shiva, and the rest of the super gang helping out when we are hit with tsunamis. diseases. twisters. eartquakes. volcano eruptions. freak accidents. arent these the validations people need to wake up to the true reality. (argument2) including mon père, argue about people helping, as a way thru which his god works. compassion is being able to put ourselves in other peoples shoes. we do not religion to tell us to be sympathetic. it doesnt hold us back in helping people. but religion does. remember what the prime directive says. thou shalt not have any other gods before me. why help these heathens unless theyre going to convert. mission to africa. you get fed only after youve accepted jesus as your personal savior. otherwise. DIE FROM HUNGER!! you evil pagans! (argument3) the phenomenon of indirect consequences. it makes sense to these people that thousands of children die as a consequence of other peoples sins. because the alternate explanation. which is the one i subscribe to, is unacceptable. even though it is the most plausible. n'est-ce pas?