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long weekend this weekend. finished setting up IIS and mySQL at home for the weekend. still no phoneline. thats almost 2 months of internet wasted.

when ask if i watch filipino movies? im a fan of the classics. its disappointing that we have all kinds of foreign classics in the black market. not one of our own available. im sure there is a sizable market for it (here and abroad). my favorite are the ones done before and after the war (ww2), aptly dubbed as the golden age of philippine cinema. with nida blanca, bella flores, rosa rosal, eddie guitierrez, and the others. there is something about black and white films. maybe its the language. its more pleasant to the ears. these days stories are built around an excuse to over emote.

at the malls, deathly pale, often times obese, old men lazily strolling with diminutive young native women beside, who appear disadvantaged (like a slave or a puppy). pretending to be the one in control. c'est la vérité? just as her family walking not far behind. trying to ignore the stares (and judgements). that it would have stages. when women are the ones trying to impress, possible not so much with personality -- as much as how good she is in the kitchen or in bed -- aah the price of a better life. to be a maid or to be a whore. one good thing about it perhaps is then that rumor of the farther the mix of genes are, the better the outcome? i do not know the specifics. half breeds appear to gain the advantage of having stronger DNA? prettier façades? they are so common now it is inevitable that of a decade later, a generation of "super" humans would have taken over the country. beginning with the small cities where naturally, it is more concentrated. the days of the not so common mestizo is over. brown hair and fairer skin can be, these days, manufactured. a pronounced nose bridge, surgically sculpted. i wonder if there is ever going to be anunmistakable shift towards being pure. tu sais -- au natural? because i have met some natives who are unbelievably beautiful. alors, ils sont parfait! comme angels noirs et puis je comprends tout.

the guys at work were uncomfortable over seeing (several times) of two men kissing on the cheeks. something that is truly alien to filipinos. much as the practice of hugging each other at the airport. expressing loudly our affections is not part of our culture. something i think id like to see change. filipinos are content with subtlety. a reverent mano. a slight tap on the shoulder. a nod of recognition. a wave from afar. we were watching a french film. unaware that kissing on the cheeks is the french way of saying hello. other roman states and colonies and part of the arab world share it. as a culture being secure with their masculinity or we have the need to prove something.

imagine how the original romans felt when the barbarian colonies started adapting, successfully or not, their language. roman language infused with barbarian flavor. the accent among other things must have been different. language purists would have been furious. the same way we are today. how people from britain would scoff at americans. moreso probably with filipinos who owe their english skills from americans. a second generation adaptation? ^_^ n'importe quoi, how we say things, in general, in the future tense is interesting. the formula for all three appears to be:

- in english, they simply prefix the word: "will"
- in filipino, we repeat the first syllable.
- in french, they conjugate with a suffix.
- in visaya, which i have just started to get used to, we simply prefix the word: "mu". another observation is in filipino. the prefix "mag" is also used to make the imperative form. maybe we owe this one to the visayas? .. c'est interressant n'est ce pas?

[anglais]     [philipin]       [français]     [visaya]

i will eat    ako ay kakain    je mangerai    mukaon ko

i will walk   ako ay lalakad   je marcherai   mulakaw ko

i will drink  ako ay iinom     je boirai      muinom ko

l'ile des tarsiers

I followed the instructions in an article i found in codeproject.com -- for remote debugging a sample c++ project and it was fun watching it work. i do not understand how it works completely and i think its unnecessary at this point.

there are two machines -- one machine is called the REMOTE and the other is called the HOST. if it were a federation starship, the REMOTE machine is the bridge or an observation deck and the HOST machine would be in engineering. we run our program from the HOST and observe its behaviour from the REMOTE.

nous sommes parti pour bohol ce fin de semaine. c'etait mon premier fois visiter l'ile. comme tous les premier fois, ce doit bon et intéressant. je suis allé avec des amis. et je pensé, apporterai-je mon ordinateur? mais peut-être ce n'est pas une bonne idée. je l'apporté n'importe qoui. alors, le père de gabe a pris tout le monde en voiture à la porte de mer. et puis nous avons pris un bateau de cebu à la ville tagbilaran. tagbilaran est la capital de bohol. il est bien et petite ville comme binan de laguna. il y a eu beaucoup maisons anciennes. il y a eu des étrangers aussi. je pense beaucoup étrangers l'aiment ici parce qu'il fait beau (tout les fois). nous avons vu des animaux aussi: des tarsiers, un grand serpent (26 ft longeur), des jeunes porcs (très mignon), des vaches et carabaos, des singes. the tarsiers were amazing. they were very tiny and docile. i wouldnt think they were monkeys. il est incroyable!

nous sommes allé à collines de chocolat (chocolate hills). breath taking. they almost look very cartoonish from the van, looking out, like a hundred breasts of all shapes and size, sticking out of the ground. some were firm and pointed. others were voluptuous and round.

la maison piscine est s'appelle tierra azul (la terre bleu). where i got a little too drunk saturday night. have not done that in ages. the day after was like having a buzz from smoking a turkish tobacco, when i had breakfast overlooking the sea. terra azul was not a party place like puerto gallera. they have a problem with water. its only available only at certain times of the day. it is perfect though for romantic getaways. il est paradis.

resignation letter

what is your opinion on working in the US .. hmm i think this is a tough question. there were many things i liked. access to internet shopping for books, porn, clothes, and other toys. the work we did was simple. unstructured. they werent CMMi or ISO certified. but some people at work were (military people) and by the time i left we were on the brink of applying for one. i enjoyed working there because we had practically unrestrained internet access (the news, messengers, blogs werent popular at that time, general access). they trusted us to come in on time and leave on time. even though the atmosphere was lax. i felt professional. people were very respectful. politically correct. i found some atheists too. which was nice because i thought i was alone. (not) haha. the place i lived in was safe. people would greet you if you happen to pass them by. like they know you already. small town. people can walk and jog. there were sidewalks to walk on. there were street lights, signs, and maps were available everywhere. american education obviously matters. i was planning to study in one of the technical colleges there but time ran out. suddenly i can afford (to plan haha) to take cruises in the caribbean or a trip to africa. or europe. things which will be difficult for me to do if i was working back here. people can do a lot of things with money. being alone most of the time maybe gave me enough courage to go out on dates. there werent many. which is something i found difficult to do when i wasnt earning as much. ^_^

there were bad things to. i missed talking to other pinoys. i didnt like the food. i had to cook for myself. which maybe is a good thing. i felt people were distant. maybe too distant. when some chinese from the mainland came over i volunteered to drive them to work. and only then did i feel i belonged somewhere. but they had to go away after a few months. which was auspicious because pretty much around the same time. i was forced to leave.

so at present. i am back here (cebu). not waiting but looking for the right oppurtunity to finally once again enjoy a different kind of paradise. incidentally, bigfoot is calling me for a final internview. its stationed here in cebu but at least i get to work with foreigners which i seem to miss a lot too. here is a practice letter. qu'est-ce que vous pensez?

mon deuxième rencontre au grand pied. j'ai parlé avec jo et axel encore. je pense que j'ai le boulot. but i dont think they will be offering what i expected which wasnt good. on the plus side, i will be working on something i know how and love to do. -- programming. there was this article rob sent which opposes my idea of getting a job thats fulfilling. with all things being equal, i would still pick the work which will give me self satisfaction. in simple terms we are down to this list of choices you have ..

bad job + good pay

good job + bad pay

bad job + bad pay

good job + good pay

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Romeo Macapobre Jr.
Rose Homes #5 Andres Abellanna
Cebu City, Cebu,
Philippines

10/19/2004

xxxx xxxxxxxx
Lexmark Research and Development
7F Innove Plaza Bldg., Cebu Business Park,
6000 Cebu City
Cebu, Philippines

Dear xxxx xxxxxxxx:

Effective two weeks from the date of this letter, I resign my position as Senior Software Engineer.

I've enjoyed working here. Thank you very much for the opportunities you've provided.

Sincerely,

Romeo Macapobre Jr.
Senior Software Engineer

la mer

i installed service pack 2. almost a gig of stuff MS thinks i need. i have 10G total in viking. with photoshop, warcraft, office, and the OS. i am down to 2.5G.

quittez ici, lisez-vous pas, si regarderez le film (DO NOT READ) -- j'ai vu ce film que s'appelle [open water]. the truth hurts. when the couple who went diving, were left behind by their station boat, they were as good as dead. it was painful to watch them go through the ordeal. i wanted so much for them to survive. thank you hollywood! we are all conditioned to think that there is a happy ending. there is no such thing. after they both died, it was disturbingly real. so much so, even i cant take it. it was unbelievable. take suicide, a freak accident, a terminally ill patient. people make up flowery stories to justify the fairy tales. we are never responsible. we are never accountable. it makes us all feel better. its delusional heaven. vs inner peace?

REGARDEZ coupling. the british and original version. JE ABSOLUTEMENT L'AIMé! it was smart therefore funny. last night, they were playing around the french bitch named giselle. it was hilarious. you couldnt help but notice just how a regular sitcom, tells a lot about its culture. mention of other cultures without looking down on them (take some shows where they demonize neighboring canada and mexico -- thru stereotypes).

several days from now (2 de novembre), america will decide its fate. being the obvious cultural leader of the planet, their decisions superimposes itself on the rest of us. much as we dont like to admit it. when asked why i am too concerned. i do not agree with two of kerrys plans. on illegal immigrants. i feel there is something wrong with rewarding people who break the law. that encourages illegal behaviour. is it prejudice, to think that people who have skills, in turn have more to contribute, are more valuable than let us say people who have no skills, in turn have less or nothing to contribute. on vetoing plans for a privatized social security. i think it is more properly a citizens decision where her retirement investments get invested? dont you think?

other things i miss. demain, mon copain sortirons pour manille, pour deux semaines. wonder what i will do with all that time. there is no driving to another city. the roads are insanely dangerous. i dont have a car. there are no maps to tell me which way to go (theres not much of any street signs either). i miss it badly. driving along the coast listening to rave, the 60s, and some jazz on the way back. i enjoyed stop overs at the rest areas while i light up a smoke (the nicotine is talking) and watch other people in their cars, are my good days over? universe .. i ask.

what does ireland, mexico, the philippines, the southeastern states (aux etats-unis), latin americas have in common? christianity and an abudance of people living below the poverty line ..

True or false? "Islam and Christianity are both great religions which contributed equally to the growth of science, art and civilization"

i disagree on

1. both being "great" religions. my opinion -- when it keeps us from achieving civil liberties and social progress (and which are already availble in other more sophisticated societies). we have seen the outcome of a secular society. progress. which keeps women as second class citizens. married women imprisoned in a lifetime of misery. women practically sold as property. where people have the license to commit assault and murder, and regarded still as holy .. perhaps .. of great evil .. (if evil exists)

2. and on contributing to the growth of science and civilization. astronomy, archeaology, physics, and other sciences were prohibited by the christian church during and right after the dark ages. why do we think it was called as such .. dark ages. where during the course of a millenia. thousands have died during the inquisition. during the salem witch hunts. during 911. the church is at present against stem cell research. and if im not mistaken they are also ignoring the effects of an ever growing population towards the environment, the economy, the general state of affairs. when churches use public funds (tax payers money) to fund their religious projects .. EDSA shrine .. (i think, im not sure)

3. their contribution to art is debatable. but i am more inclined to think its a function of being creative (rather than being faithful) .. something to do with the institution .. but nothing to do with religion ..

history has taught us .. is teaching us .. i dont think we are listening ..

destroyer of souls

je suis venu au bureau à huit heures et quarante. je sens content mais je ne sais pas pourquoi. peut-être parce que c'est un vendredi? en tous cas, je lisant ce article aux politiques ce matin -- wasnt there a law prohibiting politicians, after being elected or assigned to the position, bringing income/capital out of the country? or was that dollars only .. what about familiy members who serve as front, as guise to the family (ill gotten) fortune, how are they accountable? people in military for example and then they live at forbes.

i am acquainted with some people in the media, who i thought were the key to fight graft and corruption since its their job to expose these things. then i learn the media is part of the cancer. they, of all people, are in the pockets of these politicians. its messy. sometimes, i dont want to think about it anymore. wish i wasn't as helpless migrating to less toxic environments.

finalement, j'ai vu le film que s'appele live show. its a pathetic movie with pathetic characters. people who are victims by choice. i realize half way from watching how, either im too detached whats really happening, or it is bluntly i might add, making excuses for their destructive behaviours. check this. one woman who gave up her right to her child and then comes back many years later. when her kid turns her down, she sits in one corner and cries about it. what the f*ck is up with that?? if this is filipino culture .. who is to blame me for not wanting to be part of it.

caught the second debate between bush and kerry. i saw bits and pieces of the first and third debates from the news. kerry appears to be the more superior debater frequently found with precise backup from named authorities from both left and right camps. bush, on the other hand, appeared convinced if not overtly intense in bravado. which does not make a good debater because his emotions (are on the surface) and thus his arguments might be misconstrued as .. not well thought of. only to be caught lying and im only too happy to read about them the next day from the newspapers. the media is at work there.

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stephen hawking's god Their "god", he says, is really just "an abstract principle of order and harmony", a set of mathematical equations. [max] this is different from the anthropomorphic version of "god" like yaweh, allah, jesus, jupiter, and zeus. this is somewhat similar to what einstein said about his "god". that it is the universe itself. not necessarily a single sentient mind at work

which ten commandmentsThou shalt not make unto thee any graven image, or any likeness of any thing that is in heaven above, or that is in the earth beneath, or that is in the water under the earth: [max] this is the protestant version of the second commandment which fundamentally restricts its members from studying the planets, mapping of the stars and the universe, outside of our planets atmosphere, or we can loosely interpret as well the study of the weather (and they have - see entry on galileo and other great minds persecuted of this "offense"), nor mapping the oceans. a clear divide from the goals of science. see more in the link.

l'aperçu de trois

my brother made it to the freshman tryouts for NCAA!!! on top of that, he is doing very well in academics. hes got a 1.8! i am so proud of him. they're now studying flowcharts and c++. i can help him with that. but im afraid that he might turn out to be someone like (you know who) whos all graduated and taking the same course in another country (in a better school at that) and have yet to produce a single line of working code. its possible that i had contributed to that guys dependency. a programmers worst nightmare. to be incapacitated. i am sure ronnie will do better though. hes got the necessary resources around him. hes got the latest technology beneath his fingers (i remember having to spend many a nights at the lab working on my projects). and more importantly, he doesnt have the emotional baggage that i had.

remember several months ago when we decided to donate a bag of blood? like banks, when you donate blood you get a passbook that says you deposited some blood. then this passbook is transferrable to whoever needs it. this afternoon, a coworker needed some. i lent him mine so he can withdraw from the "account". i was happy thinking something good has been done today.

meanwhile, i stole this from the frenchgeek ..

THREE THINGS I AM WEARING RIGHT NOW
1. a ny cap
2. black jeans
3. my work ID

THREE THINGS ON MY DESK
1. a dirty coffee mug
2. a pink table fan
3. my french book

THREE THINGS I WANT TO DO BEFORE I DIE
1. french level equal to my english
2. visit all continents
3. migrate to the 1st world

THREE GOOD WAYS TO DESCRIBE MY PERSONALITY
1. anti-social
2. laidback
3. nerdy

THREE BAD THINGS ABOUT MY PERSONALITY
1. i have self esteem issues
2. im judgemental
3. im pessimistic

THREE PARTS OF MY HERITAGE
1. philippin
2. malay
3. espagnol

THREE THINGS I LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1. my teeth (if they werent yellow from smoking)
2. my nose
3. my shoulders

THREE THINGS I DON'T LIKE ABOUT MY BODY
1. my stomach
2. the shape of my face
3. my height (im short)

THREE THINGS MOST PEOPLE DON'T KNOW ABOUT ME
1. im a vampire
2. im insane
3. that i have had relationships

THREE THINGS I SAY THE MOST
1. fucking shit/wtf
2. bonjour! or guten morgen!
3. how's it goin'?

THREE PLACES I WANT TO GO
1. la france
2. l'afrique
3. en europe

THREE NAMES THAT I GO BY (other than normal name)
1. max
2. maxie (i dont know where this comes from)
3. jun

THREE SCREEN NAMES I HAVE HAD
1. maxm1973
2. rmacapobre
3. bigbro73

le cardinal

monsieur sin est dans l'opital. i was also wondering who is paying for his medical services. i knew somebody who had the same problem (periodic blood transfusions) and the taxpayer was paying for his. (canadian taxpayers). and i remember him telling me without socialism, there was no way he could afford it. i wish him (sin et mon ami ensemble) well but i also think there is something unethical about using money direct from the church coffers (abundant as it maybe) for personal reasons.

socialism. does it really work? in my friends case it seemed it did. but then you look at what happened to GSIS and SSS. our futures virtually gone down the drain. in the hands of a few people (policitians) who get away with it claiming bad investments. (evading accoutability) what gives!

Many women in Saudi Arabia, the birthplace of Islam, have balked at getting the ID cards -- introduced three years ago -- because the photographs would show their faces unveiled.

[max] is it just me or this is crazy. reminds me of primitive cultures not wanting to have their pictures taken, afraid of their souls being captured by the camera

en plus, j'ai trouvé ce site français que s'appelle frenchgeek. il a traductions en français et anglais ensemble. je pensé c'est super! i plan to use it to practice my reading comprehension. peope who know shit about language learning think that its all just a fad. that im just being superficial in my studies. well i certainly dont think so. it may have started that way but i think ive gone past pretention. surfing the blogs that are out there, i wish i knew how to read them.

i wore my hawaiian shirt today. and some people were disturbed by it. i dont get it. what a person wears is his/her business. i have made jokes of that old lady who wore moo jackets back in my previous company. but i dont remember making them out loud. although nobody was making a joke out of my hawaiian. i dont think it was appropriate to make public statements about them. one thing is certain how one appears is very important to these people. how you wear your hair, what clothes you wear, how you walk, how you speak .. all superficial n'est ce pas? bakit pinapakialaman kasi .. ^_^

grandpied 2

n'importe quoi with the good news coming from accenture i am bound to pack my bags. things could not get any worse, ian failed to pay the phone bill which means i wont have internet until the next payday. i am not buying the cousin excuse because the phone company reserves a grace period of three months before actual cut off. do the math. its not even about the phone anymore. i swear there wont be a next time ..

having no internet freed my time to finish the third installment of artemis fowle in a day. no calls from j either. the whole day. blank. i am usually a patient guy but i am tired of hearing excuses, which is why ive decided to call everything off. im putting my foot down. i do not have time for these games. I AM NOT A CONVENIENT STORE!!!

la jeudi passé, j'ai parlé avec michelle (qui est de florida aux etats-unis) et jean (qui est de berlin ou quelque part au alemagne) de bigfoot. my best interview performance ever. one. i felt really comfortable finally able to speak unrestrained. there were no patronizing looks. no judgements. wierd isnt it? youd think native speakers would, of all people, have a problem with it. they don't. its people like us. non native speakers who do. et seconde. i was able to answer their technical questions. although admittedly they were the sort that anybody who have had ample experience should be able to answer. without fuss. which means these arent the type of questions thrown where you have to have had memorized the MSDN to be able to respond correctly. or the more bizarre stuff like how many pails do you need to get 7 liters of river water across .. comment puis-je oublie n'est pas? ^_^

quittez, s'il vous plait!

this would count as my third attempt in 2 years. the first two had been really fustrating. i do not know of any around me who understands what im going thru. simple folk think its a switch that you can turn on and off just like that. i fail to explain to them that its so much more. it is like any other addiction. its mental as much as it is physiological. and it's serious.

sometimes, people act all self righteous and vindictive, around me when i try to seek some kind of validation about why i should stop. the negative response certainly is not helping. so i have to cut these people out. in fact, i think this applies to every other problem. cut off those elements which are detrimental to our ultimate goal. so right then and there i am already at an advantage. i dont have anybody who will listen. luckily there are self help resources available online -- http://quitsmoking.about.com

im asked to get a paper and pen out (these days, it goes, turn on the computer and start typing.) then write down my own reasons for quitting. i miss running. i used to run when i was a kid. i used to run after work. now im hardly able to walk a block. i tire easy. suddenly i feel i do not have any energy to do other stuff. like lifting weights. its a health hazard. i enter guilt sessions -- "of many habits, why did i have to pick up this one?".

i used smoking as an excuse to go to sleep. to cover up for my excessive anxiety over crowds/parties/general gatherings. an excuse for my social ineptness. an acceptable reason to give other people. although there are more times that i really do want to be alone. am i shy? bizarre that i didnt feel embarassed talking to strangers (aux etats-unis). to kill time and think. the irony was i used to go outside and enjoy the fresh air (during spring or fall) and smoke. its no question. it was a stupid decision. im not putting blame on anybody (except moi). i just thought society could have been a little more responsible. i wouldnt feel bad if they outlaw this stuff but thats another issue ..

mes trois langues

j'ai acheté mon très premier lotto billet ce soir. i did not win. i did get one of the numbers right. the number that was picked at random. the next time we think about burning another 10. pick everything at random. there was that voice in our heads, that chimerical genie telling us that we are going to win. it was strong and very convincing. wishful thinking? winning the lottery will somehow magically bring about everything thats wrong in our lives. its almost intoxicating. no wonder a lot of people get hooked. and im almost positive this is the same euphoria a theist feels when she is in the "moment".

c'est le deuxième fois ce semaine que j'ai revé de a. i wonder. there had been times the same thing happened in the past where there comes news that follow (after deaming about it). an email. a friend telling me whats up. its one of those unexplained phenomenon that i have come to expect rather than rely on. because there has been substantial outcome from previous experiences. not all the time of course. most likely a coincidence. dreams, j'ai lit, are supposed to be the balancing weight our subconcious puts on to compensate an excess or a depression. i wonder ...

sumasakit ang aking lalamunan pagising ko ngayong umaga. dahil siguro nabasa ako ng pawis nuong nakaraang linggo at natuyo dahil sa aircon sa opisina. hindi naman pala mahirap magsulat ulit sa tagalog. siguro halintulad sa pagsakay sa bisikleta na sa kadahilanan may kaalaman na tayo nuon, sa gitna ng hindi paggamit nito sa matagal na panahon, ay maari pa din natin magamit sa kasalukuyan. tapos ko na yung libro na artemis fowle. dili ko masyadong ganahan sa istorya. except yung isa fairy na dwarf - munch diggums. yung nagnanakaw ng mga oscar awards from awarded celebrities for fun. haha. naiisip ko lang kung paano sila magreact. they have been rumored ot be very possesive of the golden man. o siya sa susunod ulit subukan kung gamitin ang tatlong lenguwahe upang pare parejo ko silang mapagsanayan. sa susunod ulit. until next time. hasta la vista. à bientot.

evil CAP

dans l'image est ma famille. de gauche à droite, de haut à bas sont mon petit frère ronaldo, mon père qui s'appelle romeo aussi comme moi, et puis il y a moi, puis ma mère qui s'appelle rosalinda ou baby, ma petite soeur ruth, ma grande soeur est rowena et mon grand frère est renan. mes parents ont cinq enfants. tous les monde dan la famille est fini avec l'école mais ronaldo. toutefois, mon petit frère a fini son premier semestre. he got a 1.8. i am so proud of him. au debut, i had some doubts because his highschool, to put it plainly, was not known for its academic merits. i do not have a clear idea of what that means but having 1 in there must be good. when 1 is the highest.

en plus, il est sur la College Assurance Plan (CAP). CAP was a good idea until lately when the changes started. (1) they give out the money late which is a huge dilemma for a lot of families. everybody pitched in to come up with ronnies tuition next semester. so thats done. i heard stories of other plan owners who had it worse. for instance there was this one student, who was not permitted to take her exams until CAP pays. mama advised her to not leave the CAP premises until they give in. (2) originally, it was going to be CAP who will be directly dealing with the schools. now parents are forced to travel to CAP to get the check and then to the school to give the check. now theyre adding to the expense and taking from our most prized commodity (time).

on both points i want to know if the government can do anything about it. what are our options as consumers? clearly, a contract has been breached. families put a lot of trust on these companies. now when its payback time, suddenly theres no money. i remember being barraged with flowery promises from the start that it was a sure thing. that IT will never happen. and yet a decade after, here we are.