la maison adarna

[nano] j'ai vu ce livre qu'est illustraté par nano au librairie national makati et un autre par mikea. theyre published artists now. impressive. pourquoi est ma en retard? why is my mommy late? édité par adarna house. écrit par kristine canon. illustré par mariano "nano" ching. nano is a friend from the university who pursued his real passion (fine arts) instead of proceeding with engineering. sometimes i think about what would have happened if i did the same thing. would i have been happier? [ghosts] some ghosts came back to haunt me these past few days. i had given up most of the things i had thought i wouldnt. which spared me a lot of heartache. i couldnt imagine a life spent otherwise, without the safety of a tangible distance. for a second i thought i am maybe needed? but for sure it was just my ego talking. i had nothing then. what makes me think i have anything now ... et ils sont nerdie, spaniard, the kid, china, et le viking. how come i can only recall the heartaches. the failures. i looked for some old pictures. to remind myself that there were, at times that i was really happy. even if they were, few and far to in between. pictures make remembering easier (1) success shared and spent with mama and ronnie (2) china said yes on a date (3) playing rpg with friends (4) work trips abroad (5) passed thesis. i dont remember happiness much. [secular] you can think, read, watch, buy any idea off the market. including offensive subject matters. citizens are free to define their own virtues. all citizens can own property, vote, have an education, raise a family, marry. [religion] ideas are supressed. censorship. equality is defined as one of a partnership giving up their being. ex. people lead to believe their incapable of doing things which evidently in secular societies ARE ABLE todo. [opus dei] when the da vinci code came out. opus dei members were barred from reading it. it had content which are against or different from the traditional. even though it is clearly a work of fiction. what are they so afraid of. that people might think? start to question? and finally if its slander, why dont they sue? [des musique] et finalement, j'ai trouvé des musique de mon frère. 1. twisted par keith sweat 2. out of reach par gabrielle 3. simpleng tao par ?? 4. hinahanap ng puso par ?? 5. she will be loved par maroon.

[français]                 [visaenne]              

je suis allé à l'hôtel.    ni-adto ko sa hotel.  

je vais à l'hôtel.         adto ko sa hotel.     

j'irai à l'hôtel.          mu-adto ko sa hotel.

dorothy sbornak

colegio de san juan de letran. quand j'étais jeune, j'ai étudié dans cette école. et il s'agit tous suivant les règles. tous les étudiants étaient commandé ce que faire, penser, et croire. there was no room to be yourself and self expression. in fact one time, a kindred was stripped of the prize just because he was kindred. [family tree] les choses que j'ai apprendu de ce projet. (1) comment la famille est fragile. (2) une différente sens de qui j'étais et d'ou je viens. i am not just a macapobre. neither i am just a sales, a paredes, a picadizo, a guitierrez, an ortega, a tejana, a rodriguez, a rico, a wasawas, a bubuli, a tanod tanod. i am all of them. (3) appreciation of history, sociology, genetics. how easy it is to diffuse a bloodline. three generations away from hermogenes. [golden girls] one of my all time most favorite show. ce groupe de vieille femmes qui habitent dans une appartement. ces femmes a apporté le rire a chez moi beaucoup de temps. i feel i know them personally. even my mother likes it. the storylines are simple and hilarious. i could watch and find myself laughing even at the reruns. my favorite is dorothy because shes the smartest. but everyone is a favorite. each has something adorable about them. rose for instance is simple and childlike. sophia is blunt wise, and grumpy. blanch is vibrant and alive. shes more alive to me than some people i know. i was browsing friendsters and found some people who might as well pretending to be them. i cant find blanche though. [reunions] j'ai vu des amis de fujitsu et de l'université. we talked about the lunch outs. after-work trips to burger king with their bottomless soda. having bigger desks. japanese vs american workplace, phone, internet usage, trends in the tech industry, plans for the immediate future. about people who werent present. life after weserv. relationships. sex. porn. the works. how friendships were made because we didnt hold any judgements (i think). we compared notes. everybody knew that it was never going to go back to the way it was. nor was there any intention of wanting to. (just me probably) we are always left with just one direction. forward.

oncle louie

[christmas mass] je suis allé au service d'église. i did so that i could spend more time with my family. i didnt appreciate the obsolete morals the priest was preaching. of gender roles, that men are the hunters and women wait for them to come back to the cave. and in his words, like a happy dog to see her master returned. nobody else, seemed affected, much more the women, from being compared to an animal. me, i was floored. people come here to listen to this shit every week. gender roles are holding filipinos back. people are bound to believe its true. people settling in their roles. without reaching their full potential as human beings. there were several euphemisms of light and darkness. of good and evil. things which i dont have belief in either. of prayer being the answer to people's problems. nevermind that everyone in their right mind would call a doctor, not a priest when sick. the huge altar newly barnished gold costs 42000 pesos. money that could have been spent on education and hospitalization. there's your evil. why do people dont get tired of it? [spaniard] oncle louie was my mothers cousin. from vicente's line. je connaisais oncle louie devant il mort, en 2002. il était mince. i won the lottery when ate cynthia, oncle louie's daughter, gave me some pictures of lolo vicente, lolo domingo, and the most precious find in the collection, a picture of hermogenes sales (**)!!! [lhees wedding] i took some great pictures. right after the mass started, i left (early) because everyone i knew didnt show up. i wasnt even close to lhee. it took me a while to travel from my parents house (laguna) to manila. i didnt want to waste the trip just because a couple, intentionally or not, decided to have other plans. so i made up my own plans on the way out of malacanang. i took a right turn and i ended up taking pictures of intramuros. where i went to HS. then on the way back to laguna. i took an unairconditioned bus. took some pictures of old manila. sceneries i for some reason ignored while living here. i guess, having been away for this long made me appreciate the city like a tourist.

[IE window title] cleaned up machine for ronnie. took peepen to the arcade. KEY_CURRENT_USER\Software\Microsoft\Internet Explorer\Main\window title = magaral ka ronnie ng C++!!! ^_^ (étudiez C++ ronnie!!!). use this to customize your browsers window title.

* lolo adronico was shot by his wife, and died naked on top of a woman he was having an extra marital affair with. he was from masbate. the sales family are from masbate. ** lolo hermogenes (mon grand-grand-père) was the source. ses fils. a.ka. les 5 frères. sont cenon, adronico, domingo, sales, and felix. (voir document de famille)

tante patsie

[tante patsie] nous avons visité tante patsie (patricia sales), la cousine de mère. elle est une fille de domingo sales. le frère de cenon sales. mon grand-père. elle habite à pacita deux. i could tell she was pretty when she was younger. i got hold of some of her pictures. since domingo was the youngest of the saleses. cenon the oldest. tita patsies generation were noticeably younger than my mothers. and as a consequence knows less of the past. ma mère et moi vont aller tante esther à demain. tante esther est une femme de louie. un fil de felix. un autre frère de cenon. mon grand-père. there were several interesting stories. sibling rivalries which have turned really BAD. gossiping. intrigue. over things which in my mind are nothing but temporary. i got new old pictures i can use for my family tree project. on the way home, i felt sad about not being able to meet these people. who have died before us. much more to those who we have met and are now gone. not unless there was an after life which brings together all of these unanswered questions. yearning to learn what it was .. could heaven have been invented from such questions .. a fitting climax. wishing it were all true .. bientot, je demande à ma mère. how my lola felipa and lola natividad die? (pendant la seconde guerre du monde). elle m'a dit. we dont know why they didnt leave manila and took shelter elsewhere. the house they were living in had a bomb shelter. and yet they werent using it at that fateful day. a bomb crashed through the roof. lola natividad was in her bedroom. she was hit in the stomach. mama was playing beside lola felipa. lola felipa was hit in the head. tito boy was breast feeding. lolo juan was in the same room. he was hit in the stomach. only mama, tito boy, and tita ines, hit in the shoulder, survived. [cebu forum] if there were other things that need done about cebu traffic .. they are (1) sidewalks and over passes. banning street vendors that litter garbage, beggars, "tambays", mothers carrying month old babies, and citizens littering ... (2) car horn law. ive see car horns, numerous times, used to harass pedestrians and other vehicles (3) sometimes there are no lanes. and vehicles changing lanes without signaling. (galit pa sila na yung nagkamali) (4) there should be an explicit speed limit (5) a bike lane! .. (6) squatters .. dont let whats happened to manila happen to cebu .. or has it already. where squatters have taken over the railways, the government, the sidewalks, the parks .. etc .. [swimming pool] i always disliked the beach. the sand going and staying in places i dont want them in. although, its nice to wake up to one. not swim in it. i am glad they have places now which emulate the waves and make the pools seem natural without the danger of getting stung by a jelly fish or eaten by sharks. here is a picture of me, mon frere, and mon neveu swimming in one. [tsunamis] (argument1) où sont ces gens maintenant? people who annoy me with their jesus-loves-me bullshit, now when it doesnt make sense ... are these people quiet because they secretly feel people in affected areas deserved it? isnt it the best time to teach these heathens the truth. going to hell because they worship the wrong gods. but why make an exception? of everyone thinking theyre chosen. their god is the one TRUE god. me me me me. we couldnt get more arrogant than by making ourselves THE chosen people. i didnt see allah, jesus, sto nino, shiva, and the rest of the super gang helping out when we are hit with tsunamis. diseases. twisters. eartquakes. volcano eruptions. freak accidents. arent these the validations people need to wake up to the true reality. (argument2) including mon père, argue about people helping, as a way thru which his god works. compassion is being able to put ourselves in other peoples shoes. we do not religion to tell us to be sympathetic. it doesnt hold us back in helping people. but religion does. remember what the prime directive says. thou shalt not have any other gods before me. why help these heathens unless theyre going to convert. mission to africa. you get fed only after youve accepted jesus as your personal savior. otherwise. DIE FROM HUNGER!! you evil pagans! (argument3) the phenomenon of indirect consequences. it makes sense to these people that thousands of children die as a consequence of other peoples sins. because the alternate explanation. which is the one i subscribe to, is unacceptable. even though it is the most plausible. n'est-ce pas?

voyage à manille

there was no hesitation. the schedules. the excuses. the communication. the conversatons. it might have been the longest i have had, or or perhaps ever, but it wasnt the kind of relationship i was looking for nor have i the time to hang on. i was not growing. and more than a few times, bad sign, i felt i was unnecessary. a convenience. i thought not having a celfone was the problem. but a week after of having one. it was conclusive. it is, as it is. i wrote a short letter expressing what i needed done. i hope it is as easy for me, to let all of this go, as it is for xxx.

xxx, it is obvious our relationship (wherever it has come to) is not working out. i thought that i should put this off, but i figure its best to get it over and done with this year. i need a fresh new start. i do not feel i am in a relationship anyway so lets call it quits while ahead. -- ill return the stuff i borrowed, and i just need the receipt for the books i had photocopied. lets settle next year. bye xxx. -- max.

during family reunions, i remember being always compared to my brother who had inherited the sales face. the thin nose. the beady eyes. and i remember feeling inadequate. and ugly. i feel much better later in life of course. working on my geneaologie project brought the silly memory back. it is slowly going according to plan. i have on record bits and pieces of at most 200 years of my familys history. 2 centuries. especially after my sister ruth appreciated my work. the positive feedback i needed to pursue and dig further into the past. this holiday, we will be visiting more of my distant relatives living scattered in manila and its suburbs. meanwhile, je voyage de cebu à manille aujourd'hui. je pars à onze heures. je vais prendre l'avion. ma famille vont me rencontrer à l'aeroport de manille. j'ai apporté des cadeaux (gifts) pour ma famille et mes amis. j'espère qu'ils l'apprécient.

bonnes fêtes!!

colorblindness is something most people dont know about me. when told. they make me call out several times. if i get it right. like naming a plant green or the sky blue. they assume im just playing. i remember the first time i suspected something was wrong, was in gradeschool. the teacher asked us to use black pen. i couldnt tell if mine was red by itself. but against a real black pen id know. after the test i got a huge deduction. like scolding a paraphlegic for being in bed all day long. this is a condition thats genetic. in born. things change later in highschool, the art teacher praised a painting i did telling the other students how uniquely i used purple on a waterfall scene. my intention was blue. so sometimes it becomes useful. the next time did i have to think about my condition was after college, when i started applying for jobs. and a driver license. they have a test which determines wether or not a person is colorblind. the test is fifteen questions. each question had a circle of colorful bubbles on it. my job was to identify what figure was drawn in the bubbles. at least thats what i was supposed to see. i got 1 out of 15.

last years holidays was emotionally exhausting. mark, tita ines, mon oncle loie, un cousin de ma mère a mort. et ate edith .. was struggling against colon cancer. may they all rest in peace. nous avons visité la tombe du ami de mon petit frère qui je considère mon petit frère aussi. il s'appelle marc. mama told me to take a picture of his tombstone. i havent been back here since last year. i still cant get over whats happened. i dont know what to say. not even to the family and friends he has left behind. i always ask ronnie about the day it happened. looking for clues if anything could have been done to change things. i was also comforting my ego forced to say a final goodbye to what ive come to call home (pour trois ans). i probably have had to spend the year recuperating. les bonnes fêtes. happy holidays an expression that i have grown to like over the years as a budding skeptic. moving away from its religious roots. the season had taken on a more secular meaning. instead of an insincere merry christmas, a better alternative would be bonnes fêtes!. not only does this greeting works for me, it encompasses all types of celebrations made by people during the season. including jewish hannukah and islamic ramadan. even though, i dont know anyone from either churches. i celebrate the holidays by visiting my parents and family. this year is extra special because im going to be meeting with very distant family members for my geneaologie project. im looking for rare pictures from early 19th century.

j'aime les films suivantes: le pacte des loups (voir belucci), l'appartement (voir belucci), les choristes (je cherche ce film), taxi (toutefois, c'est un peu hollywood), et indochine (voir ses yeux bleu).

douce nuit is the french version of silent night. Douce nuit, sainte nuit! Dans les cieux ! L'astre luit. Le mystère annoncé s'accomplit. Cet enfant sur la paille endormit, C'est l'amour infini, C'est l'amour infini!

le roi de cinema philippin

quand ma mère a dix ans. [le techno CD] la nuit dernière, i listened to an old techno CD i got from way back. its the same CD i played in the car whenever i drove out of town. great at long drives. and remembered how it was like. paradis? maybe ill be like that for the rest of my days. an animated skeleton in the catacombs beneath the castle, near the secret passage which leads to the caverns below where the raging bull lives. (refer to the last unicorn). intoxicated over just the idea of drinking the wine. he couldnt truly taste it. he was living in the past through his memories. c'est triste. [fpj] le roi est mort. il a mort depuis il y a trois jours. its all over the news. some people at work were deeply affected by it. i didnt know he was sick yet alone dead until i heard it from work. people were talking about elevating him to some kind of saint. if he had been anonymous about his generosity (when he was alive) or if he was really, what people say he was, hed sure wont like the idea of people bragging about his exploits. it gets worse, his death is being used to manipulate the mass. political allies giving a clear message. exactly what our nation needs right now. the mob incited to a frenzy. the media is the worst. it could only be one of either three things. they report on nonsense because theyre irresponsible? they havent got anything on him (poor investigation)? there was nothing exemplary about him to pay tribute to?

[anglais] will i go to manila? will you go to manila? will he go to manila (familiar)? will we go to manila? will you go to manila (formal)? will they go to manila? this and that. [français] irai-je à manille? iras-tu à manille? ira-t-il à manille? irons-nous à manille? irez-vous à manille? iront-ils à manille? ceci et cela. [philippine] pupunta ako sa manila? pupunta ikaw sa manila? pupunta siya sa manila? pupunta kami sa manila? pupunta ikaw sa manila? pupunta sila sa manila? iyan at iyon. [visaya] muadto ko sa manila? muadto mo sa manila? muadto siya sa manila? muadto me sa manila? muadto mo sa manila? muadto sila sa manila? kani at kana. en plus, est-ce que savez-vous le mot indonesien pour je (ou I en anglais) est aku? the same as the filipino word ako? nous sommes frères ces indonesiens ^_^. (anglais) I = (français) Je = (philippne) Ako = (visaya) Ko = (indonesian) aku. enfin, i posted lesson 27.

INFs

[1940] (during world war 2, cenon and his family stayed in war torn manila). looking at old pictures of my family, i wondered about what would have happened had we stayed a territory of the US: we would have been a guam, a hawaii. a puerto rico; or occupied by Japan: a korea; or a colony of Spain: south america. but none of the former spanish colonies ever really made it well into the modern centuries. what makes a formerly occupied, colonized, or territory successful? continued support from the mother country? people have said that the only reason why any of these countries, besides japan during world war 2, gave us up was that the local rich and powerful wanted to keep their monopoly for themselves. and we have seen the quality of life, people without, had to contend with ever since, as a result. i wonder if any of the rich countries decides to buy the philippines. theres a good story. taglish, the usage of english infused with tagalog, is not a recent nor unique phenomenon. colonies have always embraced mother tongues in history. espangalog. french. spanish. italian. and even english. all products of centuries of influences. there is, as far as i know, no actual pure language. so that knowing this lets us understand better why some pilipinos speak the way they speak. and then be less judgemental of ourselves and other people. il est probablement tout natural?[1950] (cenon worked as a bank clerk during and after the war. they didnt suffer as much because the japanese government provided rice and other goods to government employees. compared to other families, they fared better). au travaille. nous étudions initialization files (INFs). its a text thats used by the system to install devices. its easy because its well documented in MSDN. how come we havent studied it seriously when we started? it is something, well everyone expects of us but have not given time to study. so now, together we're going in there and place every idea down, in our own words, to get a better understanding, passed our intuitions. and who knows what kind of questions we might not have come up with. if we didnt dug deeper. it was lasky's idea. which i have to admit, has direction and he listens to everyones opinions. a good leader in my book. lloyd had unintentionally made some beeps again this week. geez man! give yourself a favor .. and then there is armen, the new guy. he seems to be doing well. [1967] (more than 10 years after the war, the country was doing better economically. the philippines was ranked second in asia. hundreds of chinese immigrants decided to come down from the mainland which at this time was experiencing a cultural revolution. life was good. except cenon had a penchant for gambling and women. hed be seen at the local bars, movie houses, at the jai allai which was banned later even though it was a recognized as a sport back in spain). i received a number of good stuff from attending xmas parties. i dont usually go to them. im anxious around people. and sometimes the food stinks. i got - des dicos français et visayan, saison dix des amis, a biblical token (to hold stuff on the fridge), a french grammar book from j, a bouncing tiget keychain, a celphone for myself. a phone line. l'internet. some porn from hearti. free groceries from the company. sandals! i need to get a new pair. acquired two new books. one UML and the other about design patterns. and a round trip ticket to manille. la vie est bien ^_^

frères, soeurs, et un neveu

[dream] je me suis réveillé à cinq heures. trente minutes plus tard. j'ai preparé, fait et pris du cafe au lait. peu après, j'ai fumé une cigarette. et puis, j'ai pensé au sujet de ma réveillée. i was with mr burns at the mall talking about lipstick. we were buying a couple for our lady friends. the lady behind the cosmetic counter helped us pick out good ones. i was uncomfortable being in the ladies section of the store. while mr burns wasnt particular about which one to get, i was. i wanted it to be dark and solid red. i imagined lips that were rouge almost noir perfect lips against white skin. like how women wore their lips during the 1940s. i think i tried it on. (c'est un peu bizarre, je sais). [déjeuner à la grille] nous avons dejeuné à la grille de jovens, à la rue d'osmena, pas loin du fuente. il y a huit de nous. l'ange est assis en face de moi. il est très beau. en fin de la semaine, je suis allé à l'institute technologie de cebu mais il était ferme pour le jour. everyone was out to party accdg to the guard posted at the gate. i was planning to ask them about the MSCS program theyre offering next year. the school building looked like all engineering architecture. hauntingly functional lacking any creativity. i will go there on monday. thinking it was lucky that i didnt pursue the MSIT program at saint charles. MSIT vs MSCS. no question. [téléphone cellulaire] en plus finalement, j'ai acheté une téléphone cellulaire. une modele ancienne mais je crois qu'il est très mignon. il est nokia 1100. if it were computers, i just bought a 386. remember those? green monitor. DOS games. probably obsolete. a gift for myself for a hard years work. im sure everyone wouldnt hesitate to give me a word or two about should i have listened to them i would have gotten a better deal. everyones a critic. i wanted so much to get it over with while at the mall. i picked out the first phone i could afford. the mobile business had gone insanely huge (even for a 3rd world) they have even provided filipino translations now. i am probably one of the last person in the country to get one. i practiced holding it. like i had a new found friend. then i took a mental commitment. never to become one of those zombies walking on the malls. sur les ascenseurs. sur les rues. dans les cafés. elle est temps. i waited this long because i was afraid to admit, i am no longer "in transit". i thought being one was kind of cool. a free spirit. never tied down to a place nor to anyone. for a time i felt i needed time out. i wasnt seriously thinking of staying but i have and as espected i have found a healthy number of allies. et peut-être des amis. j'habite en cebu depuis janvier 2004. my short term goals. que sont-ils? [1] MSCS - in game terms, the next level. [2] français deux dégre [3] cherchez L'UNE (THE one), cependant ces jours, je déja vois quelqu'un. mais je un peu desolée parce que je sais qu'elle ne l'est pas. [dept xmas party] people at work conspired on making the exchange purely between men and women. didnt win. a hidden plot to match-make singles, therefore if anything does happen, validates their brand of normal. resistance is futile? this is fine. they can bullshit-talk of it being all for spirit of gift giving. i got what i wanted - un dico français. pendant la partie, je suis MALADE (avec une capitale M). sick to my stomach. there were parlor games. so i spent most of the evening outside drinking. je n'aime pas de la bière. but beats the hell out of having to participate there were some nice looking people out. [est-ce que ma vie n'a plus significance?] ce hier soir, je ne peux pas dormir parce que j'ai boit beaucoup du cafe au lait. j'ai pris quatre tasse. alors, j'ai decidé voir des images de ma famille. vous savez. money doesnt matter. neither is being successful at work. suddenly everything meant nothing. not even being proven right about religion. only that i should find the time i have left in making my family happy. these pictures have a way of showing what really matters. and the names, all the way up to the beginning of the 18th century. the idea of generations of people, gone. whom i will never meet and know about. i feel truly empty. then i wished god exists. then if there is an afterlife, id get to meet all these people (that is if i dont get stuck in hell first ^_^), my ancestors. and ask them questions about their interesting lives. toutefois, je ne crois pas elle existe. the whole idea of her, romantic as it is, doesnt make sense in my reality. peut-être, je suis triste mais honêtte.

traduisons

[ma lettre pour lorraine de suisse] mon plaisir. oui, je suis okey. ces jours, j'habite et travaille à cebu. en plus, j'étudie français. j'ai parlé avec m dan (borja) et il a dit moi que vous bien parlez français. quelquefois, j'ai bavardé avec nos amis de DLSU par yahoomsgr. tout va bien aussi. comment dit-on "happy holidays" en français? vous ou tu ... je comprends ^_^ [un autre histoire de famille] ma mère a dit moi à ses grand-parents. son grand-père est juan paredes. mon grand-grand-père. sa grande-grande-mère est julianna picadizo. ma grande-grande-mère. ils ont travaillé pour dr. prospero. juan was the house cook. and julianna was the labandera (laundry-maid). they met and fell in love there. they were poor folks but they managed to send their daughters philippa, natividad, et celidonia to school. they valued education. unlike others in the family, margaritos line, who from some reason, thought daughters are solely eligible for a family life. josefa, margaritos daughter, wasnt sent to school for that reason. almost like it was in biblical times. were women were sold like common property. [studies] i just joined polygot-learn-language.com and i got some people writing back wanting to learn filipino .. isnt that amazing? here is an example of an exchange. they have for chinese, japanese, german, vulcan and klingon too i think ^_^ salut, comment allez vous m soraya de marseille? voici sont des basics anglais, français, et philippin + visajenne (une dialecte des philippines). what = que = ano = unsa. who = qui = sino = kinsa. why = pourquoi = bakit = nganoman. how = comment = paano = unsaon. where = où = nasaan = asa. des examples des traductions literal: what is your name? quelle est votre nom? ano ang iyong pangalan? j'espère que ceci vous aide. amicalement, max de manille. [jingle bells] vive le vent is the french version of jingle bells. Vive le vent, vive le vent, Vive le vent d'hiver, Qui s'en va sifflant, soufflant Dans les grands sapins verts (i dont get this part ^_^). Oh !!! Vive le temps, vive le temps, Vive le temps d'hiver, Boule de neige et jour de l'an Et bonne année grand-mère!

coffee talk - la cultur

quand mon frère a seize ans. hearti, mon projet leader, sortira à la fin de mois, pour manille. je le manquerai. he was a true ally. somebody who understood where i was coming from. il est très comme moi. nous sommes différent. he was unafraid and willing to communicate. and from that, i have found a refuge. mais c'est la vie. les peuples viennent et vont chaque fois. you cant help but feel a tinge of abandonment. just as it was, back in fujitsu, when one by one friends began to leave and find a new life abroad or elsewhere. i am sorry to see him leave. and then i came to think about what happens if and when its my time. what i will miss the most about cebu. cebu was recuperation. parce que ici, il est - quiet. uncomplicated. slow-paced. safe .. (sigh).

what is coffee talk? it is probably what i miss the most from my friends from fujitsu.

max - culture is a false generalization.
rob - The weird thing about culture or society is that it is always changing.
carlo - culture is a functional byproduct of a group's history.
john - Being proper and 'normal' is excessive for me here (japan). Il es tres ridiculement!!

walk on by

what sandman character are you? "It is in the nature of mortals to die. Sooner or later, they all go to the Sunless Lands." You Are: Death of the Endless You are Death, the second oldest of the Endless, the seven great incarnations. She is, in outward appearance, a goth with wild unkempt hair and slightly punkish clothes. But she is far beyond that mere description. Her function is much like the "Reaper," to collect the souls of mortals as they die. She is perky, optimistic, and bright, but she also has a serious side, which shows when she is angry or upset. She can become quite frustrated with her brother, when he is being singularly foolish. People fear her because of what she is, and this can get her down sometimes. But they also love her, without ever truly knowing why.

finalement, je suis maintenant en deuxième degré dans mon livre français! yehey! small acheivement. having less distractions at home (no internet) made it more possible to concentrate on my studies. i am a step closer to understanding 54 countries. ^_^ après tout, il y a 54 pays francophone dans la planete. most of which are in l'afrique. but i dont get to help mon frère as often as i want. ils étudient arrays maintenant.

en mecredi soir, la semaine dernière, nous avons joué warcraft au talamban. il n'y pas musique. tant pis. il y a eu huit de nous. le premier joue. free for all. used undead necros, a few abs, and vagons. my weakest race. won. la deuxième joue. 2 vs 2. j'ai émployé la même strategie. won. la troisième joue. 4 vs 4. j'ai émployé ma specie préférée - l'elves de nuit. lost. we didn't work as a team. la quatrième joue. 4 vs 4. j'ai émployé les undead. won. par ce temps, je suis été fatiguée. and we needed to go to the party. i hitched a ride with art. à la fête. some were dressed. some arent. everyone was supposed to come as a celebrity. somebody went in as the pirate from that movie. he won. another went in kimono. i should have brought my black kimono. food wasnt great. and had often ran out in between trips to the food bar. je suis sorti tot parce que je suis été épuisée.

bbc world's walk on by. j'ai écouté des musique de 60s. comme les 4 seasons. les beatles. les beachboys. dione warwick. les supremes. aretha franklin. motown. les oiseaux (byrds). bob dylan. barbara streisand, carol king. devinez où sont-ils parti? en plus, va voir getfirefox.com - browser open source. va voir videolan.org/vlc - video format player open source

tv5 dimanche. j'écoute des musique français. je suis seul au monde par conneille. tragédie. mc scholar. la vie est belle. comme un oiseau. sans ailes. est-ce que sommes-nous prêt? can anyone have predicted that a hundred years later, la cultur africaine reignera le monde. j'aime juste l'afrique!!! les philippines sont dans les journaux. même dans en tv5. et puis j'ai vu le président gloria arroyo parle en français. hee hee hee. c'est la première. je suis prèt pour les holidays. j'ai acheté mon billets d'air philippines. je partirai en avion. je sortirai en decembre 23 et je rentrerai l'an prochaine, en janvier 3. je rencontrerai ma famille, mes amis de l'université. et peut-être par cela temps, j'ai acheté mon téléphone mobile.

en samedi soir, après diner au majestique, nous rencontrons wil de lapulapu. et puis nous avons regardé un film la grudge avec buffy. dans le film, elle s'habite au japon. an exchange student. i missed living in japan. my stay there was short. i enjoyed the food. and the sense of culture. the movie didnt say how to get out of the cycle. it left the question open. it was a disturbing movie. pour moi.

[mettez des vingt choses je veux changer] we all have great ideas about what things to change to make a better world. things that if it were up to us are too big to deliver. but have thought about constantly. en plus, dont know how to get there [1] id have public education teach english, filipino, an elective foreign and local (a dialect) language. its easier then to connect and appreciate the diversity that is the planet earth. more trade relations. america isnt the only country we can have economic ties with [2] ill have public education teach all major catechisms. the institutions (churches) would be more than happy to provide the manpower for free. enters philosophy. from classical greece to neitzche should be taught alongside. from the start. teach children how to think early not just what to think about [3] heavily tax cigarettes. theyre poison. [4] decriminalize pot. legalize divorce. pornography. decriminalize prostitution. and then appropriate the social stigma to the agents rather than the prostitutes. (comme congressmen, police, the mama-sans). allow gay marraige and implement the death penalty. mercy killing. contraceptives. and sex education [5] illegalize abortion [6] give tax incentives to parents who choose to adopt. monitored. [7] tax churches just like any other enterprise except charity and benefits then channel the funds to public education [8] abolish censorship, reevaluate the media ratings board. have you seen the kind of rated PG trash thats being shown out there? [9] truly secularize, federalize (3 states), and professionalize the government. [10] people who relied on socialized education should serve the nation. minimize the braindrain. [11] SSS ID should be the only identification necessary. plus licenses of course [12] all businesses including transportation, fastfood, going to the movies, etc should accept cards. [13] raise property and luxury tax in bigger cities to encourage growth in smaller cities. [14] two child policy. tax incentives. [15] all children are legitimate. child support. [16] huge tax incentives on employers who hire physically challenged citizens. [17] higher taxes on private transportation especially on vehicles that span three quarters of the road. promote car pooling, otherwise have them pay a fine for driving a truck. (what were they thinking????!) .. phew .. c'est beaucoup!! [18] the coasts should be public property. i have noticed that some foreigners have bought coastal areas all for themselves [19] where are the DAMNED sidewalks!! streetsigns, speed limits. traffic lights. directions. garbage dumps. [20] no street vendors allowed. no beggars allowed.

house rent                      =  4000

total éléctricité = 1072.57 / 3 =   360

water supply = 150 / 3          =    50

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ian's loan                         -500

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total                              3910