mercredi, septembre 28

le prince du sang-melé

mes parents sont ici à cebu. nous sommes allés au toledo en van le week-end passé. nous sommes allés au leyte par bateau avant cela. j'ai vu de beacoup et beaux gens. ils ont eu tous de la peau brune. et j'adore la peau brune ..

j'ai vu le film le divorce. people are subject to affairs outside marraige and the french accepts this. while americans and filipinoes can continue to pretend that life can be a fairy tale with a happy ending. it is a window to the french culture. not exactly one that mirrors fact but rather maybe how americans view them.

j'ai vu un autre film death becomes her. it is fascinating to us. this subject because in truth we can only know the life we have here. on earth. and the rest -- beliefs of an after life are just means for most of us - the great majority, to cope with this undeniable fact of someday. this will all end.

j'ai fini avec harry potter: le prince du sang-melé (mix-blood prince). et on connait que quelq'un est mort en fin. quelq'un qui est très important. bien sur, je ne dirai pas son nom. it has always been like that with me when ive grown attached to the characters in the story. it doesnt matter if the story concluded happy nor sad. i feel somewhat empty after. empty like when someone close has died. that there wont be a tomorrow to get to know them better. that the printed word "end" transcends reality.

je lis un livre: artifical intelligence 2nd ed. par george luger et stubblefield. et il a dit ..

[snip] .. the notion that human efforts to gain knowledge constitute a transgression against the laws of god or nature is deeply ingrained in western thought. it is the basis of the story of eden and appears in the work of dante and milton. both shakespeare and the ancient greek tragedians portrayed intellectual ambition as the cause of disaster. the belief that the desire for knowledge must ultimately lead to disaster has persisted throughout history, enduring the renaissance, the age of enlightenment, and even the scientific and philosophical advances of the 19th and 20th centuries. thus, we should not be surprised that AI inspires so much contreversy in both academic and popular circles.

indeed, rather than dispelling this ancient fear of the consequences of intellectual amnition, modern technology has only made those consequences seem likely, even imminent.
[end snip]

these are some bugs ive found playing toee with patch 3.

- pc ranger spells arent listed. even when they are available (supposedly).
- druid spells appear out of place at the radial menu.
- mage sorc spells can display duplicates at the radial menu.
- gems carried by player characters are withheld.
- the game thinks its owned by non player characters.
- some scenes bog my machine down. or probably its my video card
- how does one use the rope of entanglement in the game?
- what about multiple wands?
- the cleric domain powers are stuck at level one.

i have tried searching for the answers from google. and it appears like im not the only one looking. ToEE is a particularly nice game esp for those familiar with the dungeons and dragons the old RPG game. its too bad though that its rigged to the rim with bugs. i dont know how it fared in the market. but i hope it did well. otherwise it would have been for nothing.

vendredi, septembre 23

highblood

j'ai fini leçon 51 et leçon 52. j'ai ajouté aussi des couleurs. on peut voir facilement les réponses.

je suis allé à l'opital hier. je vais donner du sang mais le docteur m'a dit que malheureusement, je suis malade. j'ai highblood. comment dit-on highblood en français. and so it begins. i desperately need to change my habits. its been several weeks since my last relapse. fellow ex-smokers helped out. we told each others stories on how to prevent a relapse. me. i trick myself into thinking that i still can get one. that i can i put it off. at least until the craving wears off, which usually takes the whole night.

qui est-ce qui plus intélligent? l'homme ou la femme? does gender (that thing between our legs) determine potential. they sight examples. like in the field of chess where women are a rarity. but here is what i think. if intelligence were to be categorized into N types. all N are potentially available to that person. the limits are about that person rather than by his/her gender. im looking for articles supporting this idea. i have a major suspicion that women can be as smart as men in all aspects. because some of the smartest people i know ARE women. so far my search had been futile. im almost afraid to be wrong. not at my ego's expense. never. but what is at stake concerns 50% of the population. so how come there are less women in chess? its not because theyre less intelligent. but rather culture imposes strict adherence to gender roles. women shouldnt driving. or women who play chess are wierd. or women are good at cooking. or women are submissive. or men are agressive. or men are naturally polygamous. the list goes on and on and on.

mardi, septembre 20

les pronoms

I.les pronoms relatifs que (that) et qui (which). its so easy to understand this lesson but hard to remember during application because the mind (my mind) stops a mment to ponder about wether im using it to replace a direct object or a subject. par exemple:

regardez la lune qui brille dans le ciel.
look at the moon which shines in the sky.
the moon shines in the sky.

souviens mon ami qu'il me manque?
remember the friend that i miss?
i miss my friend


II. les pronoms relatifs dont (whose/in which) et où (where). ces pronoms relatifs sont plus facile souvenir. example:

il est le garçon dont les parents décédent.
he is the boy whose parents are dying

c'est l'école j'ai pris mes études
this is the school where i took my studies


III. les pronoms interrogatifs. il y a trois choses de souvenir (?) there are three things to remember. this is when we need to ask questions.

1. qui est-ce qui ... ? quand le sujet est une personne.
qu'est-ce qui ...? quand le sujet est une chose.

ex: qui est-ce qui a écrit la lettre? le garçon (une personne) l'a écrit. qu'est-ce qui mange du pain? le chien (une chose) mange du pain. who wrote the letter? the boy wrote it. who is eating bread? the dog is eating bread.

2. qui est-ce que ... ? quand l'objet direct est une personne.
qu'est-ce que...? quand l'objet direct est une chose.

ex. qui est-ce que ils mangeant? ils mangeant des oranges. what are they eating? they are eating some oranges. qu'est-ce que le chat prend? le chat prends un petit chien.

3. a quoi ... ? l'objet indirect.

de quoi ... ? l'objet indirect.

ex: a quoi penses-tu? je pense à mon voyage à boston. what are you thinking about? im thinking about my trip to boston. de quoi pense-tu? je pense de mon voyage à boston. what are you thinking of? im thinking of my think to boston.

some toee updates. batman's level 8 still with alfred (the toad). he has access now to charm monster, fireball, and magic missiles. haste is also a favorite when the party is outnumbered. greenarrows level 9 still with poo (an animal companion) has ran out of ammo after enabling many shots feat. im afraid to surface to get some since prince thrommel (see some guests) might decide to leave. hawkgirl is level 8. she has 18 strength AND dexterity. supermans level 9. hes sporting a radiant ranseur. que veut dire 'radiant'? wonderwomans level 8. she carries a flaming longsword +1. had access to divine power. shes big in healing. but that ones obvious.

some guests. otis level 8 turns out to be a ranger. he has access to level 1 spells now. prince thrommel level 10 fighter. we saved him from magical slumber from one of the hidden chambers buried deep under the temple (of elemental evil ^_^). he was ambushed and captured 6 years ago. otis is vouching for his identity. finally theres kella level 9 druid with foo (an animal companion). i lent her supermans rod of smiting because her original weapon sucked. her favorite spells are produce flame, flame strike, call lightning. notice that these spells are area effect which means they are allowed behind the curtain of a sanctuary to cast.

jeudi, septembre 15

rentrer à l'utopia

here are some tactics i have learned in toee that i think i can use in dndzero or maybe if im really lucky at a table top game. my heroes have risen to level 5 last night from playing almost none stop for 4 days.

voici sont mes caractères: (1) batman le sorcier. look for spells that will benefit the entire group rather than just the magical damage. charm person is useful when outnumbered. sleep works too esp against lower HD creatures. then theres always the handy set of magic missiles. the rest are logistic spells like haste and bulls strength. (2) superman le barbar. i used to think very low of melee classes until now. pick up melee specific feats like cleave and greater cleave. it gives the barb critical additional attacks that maybe even out balances the game. but since he/she is playing on our team. it all works out doesnt it? ^_^ (3) greenarrow le forestier. pick up range specific feats like rapid shot, precise shot, and point blank. (4) wonderwoman la prêtress. two words spontaneous casting. area and group spells are without question the clerics ultimate weapons. ex: bless and prayer. (5) hawkgirl la combatante. standard fighter with longsword and shield. n'oublie pas prendre cleave et les autres feats combatant specifique. ils sont très importants pour des combatants. et enfin ..

utopia is a FREE online game i am playing atm. it was introduced to me by ct early 2002. if i were to compare it with other games i have played. its similar to civ without the maps and graphics. it has economy and basic politics. its also similar to heroes of might and magic where kingdoms (composed of provinces) fight for land either through brute or magical force or even the subtle strategy like economic sabotage. its web based. no graphics except those that are easily available in the web. like tables and gifs. nothing fancy.

[humans] the most scholarly and noble of the races, humans have always taken the greatest interest in learning about their world, and developing better tools and machines to make life easier. Alas, they are often considered a greedy and selfish bunch with little magical ability. [the sage] the sage has the wisdom of the ages. understanding so much about life, the world, and history, the sage can provide unique guidance in a world consisting of so many different areas. provinces led by sages will find themselves more efficient in a wide array of tasks.

j'habite à la province de mabolo cebu du royaume des conquérants (le royaume 11, l'ile 5).

mercredi, septembre 7

nouveau siopao

wedding ceremonies and atheists. getting married inside a church is not for me and probably neither for my spouse (had i had one). these days its rather for the fireworks people need to make things for them soft of legitimate. its seldom for the bride and groom would i recite the creed in the wedding? no. i wont. i wouldnt pretend to believe. i would be participating for family and friends who feel they need it. voici sont de célébres athées.

i created a new game in toee. the new game is composed of batman (sorcerer), wonderwoman (cleric), superman (barbarian), greenarrow (ranger), and hawkgirl (fighter). i waited several tries on the abilities rolls so they would come up strong. one even i think hawkgirl got two 18s. so on occasion, i get to say "hi im batman who are you?" hee hee.

savez-vous où y a-t-il des wifi hotspots au cebu? c'est ma première fois utiliser ceci. ce ordinateur-ci m'a coûté 40k oeufs. je recherche wifi hotspots dans l'internet et il n'y a plus de libres hotspots dans la ville.

basic specs for hp compaq evo notebook n610c. intel pentium 4 (1.8 GHz) **. 256MB DDR. 20GB IDE Internal **. cdrw/dvd **. keyboard, touchpad, pointing stick. weight - 5.5 lbs. dimensions (W x D x H)- 12.1 in x 9.8 in x 1.2 in. display - 14.1 in tft active matrix. max resolution - 1400 x 1050. video ram installed - 32 MB. video output - AGP 4x. audio - Sound card. network adapter. 56Kbps fax/modem plug-in module mini PCI. 1 lithium ion. estimated battery life - 4 hour(s). [note] les choses sont de mon veiux ordinateur qui s'appelle siopao aussi.

lundi, septembre 5

suis-je un a-hole?

[japan food] g - une amie va au japon. v - une autre amie va aux etats-unis. nous allons reunir ce samedi. je souviens le japon. i remember ordering .. food .. at lawson. i forget what theyre called. theyre meat and eggs on sticks. like barbecue except they boil them in broth. served during winter. there is also onigiri (rice wrapped in weed *ehem* sea weed rather). in cebu and south philippines. we have something similar to onigiri. this is called pusô. the rice is wrapped in coconut leaves. we throw away the wrapper and eat the rice inside. i dont think it exists in the north (luzon). i also miss noodles. soba and udon.

[a-hole] quelle est la difference entre un asshole, un dickhead, et un douchebag? an asshole is an incompetent or detestable person. a douchebag is a self-absorbed person. dickhead is not in the dictionary. it probably means someone whos preoccupied with sex all the time. im sure everyone had been each or all of three of them at one point or another. i can recall a number of occassions when i was. i cant change the past. and i cant promise anything. but it becomes less as i grow older. as in like now. i am regretful for some and others i still think it was funny. despite everyone telling me that it wasnt funny at all.

1. i shoved somebody on the floor.
2. i wedged the chair just before somebody was about to sit on it.
3. i tripped somebody and seriously laughed about it.
4. i put my foot on somebodys face
5. i make calls without answering
6. i pick up the phone without answering unless the other end speaks first.
7. i hit my sister.
8. i shout at my little brother.
9. i shout at my neice.
10. i was disrespectful several times at my parents.
11. i "overbooked" one time.

[martin luther] après regarder le film à martin luther. at the very least, i think i would be a protestant had i been alive at that time. naturally i would ultimately be a humanist. im just saying. how can anyone in her right mind agree to the selling of indulgences, production of holy relics, approved assasinations, misrepresented miracles, sexism, focus on saints and mary rather than that of jesus who is supposedly the center of the their beliefs, and other inherent inhumanities (self flagellation, human scarifice, capital punishment - they dont agree to it now but there had been in history countless and undeniable episodes).

[un rêve] i was with a hooker in a casino. she was playing with me. mind games. i hate mind games because i often (or most likely) loose at them. i was filled with creative things that we might do together once we're alone. nothing grand. in fact, i know im never good at it. inspite of enough research material (stack of porn) ive watched. its self esteem. i was traumatized by this one time. i wasnt able to perform after. whenever i am with someone i really really like. i become too concerned with not being able to get it up. i do okey when i don't give a heck if i do it right or not. back to the dream. she was tagging along. and i was growing apprehensive over the wait. i thought this wasnt going to work out. i need to get rid of her. then we got separated by a sliding automatic glass door. i got left behind. she rode on the escalator up to the upper floor. i was relieved. i woke up. my heart was beating fast.

vendredi, septembre 2

piller ou pas piller

je suis allé à la petite île de biliran nord de leyte. c'est nord-ouest de cebu. c'est ma première fois y aller. nous avons pris un bateau de cebu au ormoc. et puis au palo où un americain qui s'appelle général macarthur est rentré pendant la seconde guerre de mondiale. nous avons pris un camion de ormoc au tacloban. nous avons visité aussi le pont saint juan que joint l'île de leyte au samar (une autre île dans les philippines). au biliran, nous avons pris un autre bateau vers l'île qui s'appelle hangatonan où la famille de b, un gars de travaille, vit. très loin de la civilisation, on n'a pas du élétricité. on a des generateurs. nous avons nagé à la plage. et nous avons mangé de delicieux nourritures. il y avait des calamars, des poisson d'epée (swordfish), un petit porc, avec du riz. c'etait tout bien.

je lis le journal concernant la nouvelle orleans. si vous y étiez, qu'est-ce que vous pillerez? est-ce que vous pillerez? je pensais que quand nécessaire je pillerai peut-être des nourriture, des ordinateurs, et des vêtements. la nouvelle orleans et katrine le catastrophe naturel. cette une tragedie. les citoyens de la ville et des visiteurs. ils deja ont connu qu'il y avait un ouragan (hurricane). ont-ils eu des temps à partir la ville? mais ils ont resté. ce n'est pas facile. je les comprends. evidemment, ils ne sont pas preparée. ce fait la siutation devient plus désesperée. its not just a matter of moving out of the city. its losing a home, house, a job, a life. i cant imagine what i would do. nor to prepare for something like that. if the US government was ill equipped to provide rescue in time, how more so the PH. where we see politicians bickering all day at our expense. we can never depend on government id say.

then theres this woman declaring that it was a miracle to see her house still standing up. the real miracle would have been new orleans spared despite the hurricane. worse. im hearing reports of christians condemning the city for its unchristian ways. that they deserved it. much like how they reacted when the tsunami tragedy happened in south east asia. et on me demande pourquoi je ne crois pas en deiu. but more importantly, it is nice to see humanist organizations working together in the rescue operations (listed in CNN.com). i wonder how dothan, eufaula, and panama city fared. finally, you notice how churches become all of sudden tight lipped during these tragedies. where they would openly declare the order, loving, nurturing spirit that is supposedly present in the universe. it explains why they would go on condemning the victims after. it goes in accord with their beliefs. sweeping and ignoring the undoubted innocent. fact: 40% of the victims in the tsunami where children. what is 40% of 150k? how many children are there who is suffering in new orleans as we speak? and they have the audacity to claim its gods will??? STOP the excuses ... rationally, man alone knows, acts, preserves. no other. nous n'avons pas besoin de religion et ses églises.

fedora core 4 is now available for download. what attracts me to fedora core having been using windows for more than a decade. its all free. and almost all software that supports it is too. i dont want to have to resort to piracy (i have nothing against piracy. screw the government hehe) but if we could get it for free (there we are). also, it has everything (almost) that windows has in terms of function, minus the games. for some reason i am more inclined to believe when enthusiasts say that a real programmer uses linux at home. for people like me, whos running a tight budget, there is no other recourse. for now i would like to have dual boot xp and fedora core. i already have xp plus utilities installed. and i would like fedora to do the same. eventually after i am comfortable with fedora, ill be able to totally let go of my dependence from windows. although i honestly doubt that ever happening since all the games i play are windows.