aux îles des camotes

c'est une maison philippine traditionelle. quand les espagnols étaient ici aux philippines il y a entre 200 et 500 ans, les maisons philippines ont été probablement comme celles-ci. regarde comment les fenêtres sont larges. je ne pense pas que les maisons comme celles-ci existaient n'importe où.

c'était un long week-end, ce week-end. nous avons pris un petit bateau pour aller aux îles des camotes. elles sont situées à l'est de cebu. quand nous sommes arrivé la-bas, je me suis dit que je regardais au paradis. les arbes étaient forts et verts. la plage était belle. le sable était blanc. la mer était bleu. les gens avaient la peau bronzée et étaient amicaux.

je crois que je suis tout de suite tombé amoureux de lilu. c'est pourquoi quand j'ai appris que nous irons à la plage où sa famille a une grande maison, j'étais vraiment content. j'ai aimé l'idée de pouvoir passer des temps avec elle, mais je suis aussi prudent. ce n'est pas la première fois que j'ai tombé amoureux. à la plage, nous avons parlé de beaucoup de choses. nous avons nagé. nous avons déjeuné et diné de grands poissons. les repas que ils avaient preparé pour nous étaient très délicieux. nous étions au paradis.

je voulais faire l'amour avec elle. je voulais l'embrasser surtout quand elle me regardait. elle avait la peau bronzée et un visage d'ange. je voulais dire que je l'aime. comme quand j'étais plus jeune, j'ai eu peur. j'ai eu peur de perdre une amie. je n'étais pas prêt pour ça ... elle va travailler aux états-unis pendant 2 mois. elle va me manque terriblement. en plus, elle n'est pas un mort-vivant comme moi. pourquoi est-ce toujours si difficile pour moi?

il y avaient trois places que nous avions visité. nous avons visité le lac danao, la plage mangodlong, et une autre ville que près de poro où nous avons resté, à la saint françois. les paysage est vraiment où je voulais habiter parce que la vie la-bas est simple et paisible. je prends plaisir à habiter pres de la nature. tu peux imaginer comment les mecs de la ville avec leurs très très grand batiments, des pollution, et traffic. voici sont d'autres photos mes amis ont pris quand nous y sommes été le week-end passé. quelle belle et très romantique, n'est-ce pas?

kasal ni jaja

ang kilala ko lang na pumunta ay sina polanco, josie, at mikem. patawa pa din si jaja. sa boracay daw sila maghohoneymoon tapos balik na sila ng australia. si kit at mikec na ineexpect ko na pumunta ay hindi pumunta. sayang at di ako nagdala ng daing na nasa bayong para sa bagong kasal, natupad ko sana ang pagiging 100% probinsiyano ko hehehe.

dumeretso na ko sa reception. dahil ayaw nung taxi na pumunta pa ng simbahan. (oo nga .. bat aprang siya pa yung namili kung asa ko manaog). sa reception, nalate silang dumating ng 2 hours. okey naman dahil nakitsismis na lang ako sa mga nagbabantay sa harapan nung building. mga taga san pedro pacita din pala sila. tinanong ko paano lumabas dun. dahil wala akong nakitang jeep na dumadaan.

nagbalitaan na lang kami sa isat isa habang kumakain. sino ang patay na. si duarte. sino ang nagasawa na. ivy ikaw yun hehe. naisip ko din na ang tagal ko nang di nakita si jaja. mga higit kumulang sampung taon na din pala. sa panahon dumaan, naging hiwalay na din yung mga pinagdaan namin. samakwatid, nanatili sa colegio ang pagkakakilala ko kay jaja at sa mga dumating. nakakpanibago tuloy na matanaw ko sila na mga professional na. hehehe. parejas din ang aking pakiramdam sa mga iba kaibigan na matagal ko nang hindi nakikita o nakakausap man lang.

sa kalagitnaan, pinapak ko yung century eggs. siguro naka tatlo akong plato ng cenutry eggs. hehehe katung itim na parang boiled egg. at sa bago oras na nung tinatawag ang mga wala pang asawa. naramdaman ko na parang hindi tama. naramdaman kong matanda na ako para sa games. buti na lang din. si polanco din ay paalis na din. sumabay na lang ako sa pagalis.

le gardien de la lumière

i submit regularly part of my exercises to french.about.com for beginners. native speakers or other students sometimes check submitted works. not being able to validate what you know, is the biggest obstacle of studying by yourself. compounded by the uncooperative environment. i live in a country where french is not so common. this is wierd. i was at the mall andi overheard a couple of people spoke in french. haha. c'est comme ça. ils ont dit. tourists. je les aime. sometimes i encounter hostility. i am not sure where this habit of putting others down is coming from. one guy described me as "trying hard". another was just being unkind. i shouldnt care what other people think ..

crab mentality. does this habit exists in other cultures? is this something we filipinos can really be proud of (of inventing). the ultimate revenge is to prove these people wrong. get better at it. try to seek positive validation. and even if this is not readily available. you could always give yourself a pat in the back. we have come a long way. in any case, my most recent exercise just arrived and the results were less than impressive. i was not careful in my conjugations. i made too many mistakes. i should try harder next time.

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j'utilise maintenant le gardien de la lumière comme ma caratère pour le jeu DoTA. il est membre des sentinels. il est aussi un pusher comme le seul druid sauf elazor, c'est son vrai nom, est assez un sorcièr fort et évidemment un combattant faible. son seul arme offensif s'est appelé illuminate. c'est absolutement nécessaire que tu sais comment utiliser cette abilité. cette abilité le donne cultiver (farm) pour creeps et harceler (harass) des autres heros ennemi. mon recette des items pour ezalor est aghanim, dagger of escape, et pendant le fin du jeu, tu peux acheter le necronomicon. le necronomicon aidera ton autre charm s'est appelé ignus fatuus. il y a aussi une nouvelle carte (map) pour DotA avec AI. tu peux le télécharger de site dotaportal. DotA Allstars v6.27b AI. je trouve que cette carte a meilleur AI que la dernière carte parce que les héros ennemis combattront assez plus férocement que j'aime bien. c'est seul veut dire que je peux pratiquer bien.

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il y a deux choses que j'ai besion de faire aujourd'hui. télécharge debugging tools pour windows (32 bit) ici. au travaille, nous avons besoin d'apprendre comment utiliser ce logiciel s'est appelé windbg. et lise le didacticiel (tutorial) et apprenez les concepts importants. c'est va etre toujours comme ça. apprennant est vivant. toujours.

bonne saint-valentin

y a-t-il une différence entre les deux? la foi et la superstition? selon le dico. la foi est a belief in something for which there is no proof, et la superstition est a belief or practice resulting from ignorance, fear of the unknown, trust in magic or chance, or a false conception of causation. [max] .. false conception of causation .. when people win the lottery, survive a fatal accident/sickness, pass the difficult test/exam. as simple maybe as the driving exam. or making it in time preventing a tardy mark in school. people thank god for it. escaping bird poo walking down the street. i could go on and on. are people being faithful or just plain superstitious? in both situations, there is a certain unknown and putting an almost always irrational trust in it.

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c'est chose s'est appelé l'amour? there was a recent episode in oprah that talked about this. and it makes sense to me. the guest was a marraige councillor. he proposes that people fall in love with people that they think will complete them.

a person who falls in love is lacking. incomplete from an unresolved childhood trauma, as a result of non nurturing parents/environment. we develop insecurities and in time emotional problems. a person who is attracted soley on good looks is really just drawn to how he/she might feel if she is together with that beauitful face. or a pretty persons need to feel secure might agree to a relationship with someone with less looks because they think they will find that certain security. a woman who grew out of poverty, will convince herself to fall in love, with a very very old man four times her age. and vice versa. this means its all fabricated. maybe arranged relationships are more truthful in this context. there is no judgement. but it is necessary that we should take things at face value. we are likely attracted to aspects that are missing in our lives.

looking back to the past, i am also beginning to realize what were my real motivations in the people i tried to be with. there were certain things that i needed. a pretty face so id feel better about myself. a friend so id have someone to talk to. a playmate so id have someone to play with. a mother someone whod take care of my needs. they seem all to be selfish. but what other reason could there be. this also explains why a number of people dont seem to fall prey to love at all. it is because these people are more complete than others that they no longer find the need to seek out .. pour toute le monde, je te souhaite une bonne saint-valentin!

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wierd dream this morning. i was at the mall with some friends (j s'appelle m). a city-like giant mall where natural light can come in with ease because the walls were all made of glass. looking outside passed the buildings towards the sea. i see a giant tsunami coming towards us. it is still far out. many people dont realize yet what was happening. we needed to get to higher ground. the higher floors of the mall maybe is sufficient. i look back again at the giant wave. it was curious to look at. it didnt seems so destructive at this point. a slow moving wall of solid water. m and i were looking for a way to get upstairs. the elevators were too slow to pick up passengers. we took the escalators, there were a series of them. i look back at the wave and it was upon us. i was with m though and that was all that mattered.