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Catholic League condemns 'THE GOLDEN COMPASS' -- [snip] Atheism for kids. That is what Philip Pullman sells. It is his hope that ‘The Golden Compass,’ which stars Nicole Kidman and opens December 7, will entice parents to buy his trilogy as a Christmas gift. It is our hope that the film fails to meet box office expectations and that his books attract few buyers." [snip]

the catholic church had been banning science and fictional books and art films all over history. i can not imagine what it would be like had they the power to decide what we can read and watch. fortunately, the dark ages are over. we are free to read and watch as we please.

the golden compass is tome 1 of the trilogy entitled His Dark Materials. it's a fantasy world which has similarities to our own. i do not see anything atheistic about tome 1. contrary to what the catholic church is saying. early in the book it briefly (and by briefly i mean one time) mention zoroastrianism which is an ancient monotheistic religion that holds many similar concepts, stories with all abrahamic religions including christianity minus the fear mongering and guilt, (those have been entirely invented by jews, christians, and moslems). i rarely hear of zoroastrianism outside of atheistic circles. perhaps because atheists are more inclined to know about ancient religions. the fact that it is a major influence to christianity and naturally it has huge implications.

i enjoyed reading about the different factions of heroes and villains. the obvious separation of powers. there is oxford college which traditionally stood for social and scientific progress. the government, puppets of the magisterium which stands for totalitarian rule. one cant help but make the connection between the magisterium mentioned in the book and the catholic church with it's history of oppression of outsiders and suppression of freedom. the gyptians (similar to the fate of gypsies in europe). the free-spirited nomads who are subjects of prejudice, from which our main hero lyra belacqua will get most aid from. i was inspired by the magnificence of the panserbjorne (armored bears) and the alluring sorcières.

on page 239. there is, for the first time nearly the end of tome 1, a brief mention of the vatican. the power behind the magisterium and the clever precedent, refering to the practice of castration in catholic europe to preserve the soprano voice, to the awful cruelty that is happening in lyra's world -- a somewhat unclear attempt -- at what lengths is the magisterium willing to go to preserve "innocence" and at what costs.

my favorite part is the confrontation between the armored bears. i thought it a precise metaphor to how weak and potentially dangerous pretentions can become.

on se demande pourquoi j'avais devenu trop gros. voici pourquoi. i smoked weed (on occassion) and cigarettes (too much). i developed an oral fixation which made me eat more when i tried quitting. i was off and on. off and on again several times. one time i was off smoking for 6 months only to relapse because of some deep emotional incident. today. i am so big. things that i used to enjoy like running and biking. i am not able to do anymore. i am out of breath just climbing stairs. it is not healthy. today. i am smoke free for almost one year. i am so proud of myself. i never thought i could free myself of it. i do regret having abused my body. i ate and drunk too much. i regret having abused my spirit (my emotional well being - not the disembodied transparent ghost of an image that people believe in). i have been very hard on myself. ^_^ ah yes. depression made me eat a lot too. i develop the all too familiar cycle of blame. this is not uncommon among fat people.

flint forgefeu est mort

je lis le troisième livre des chroniques (les dragons d’une aube de printemps). les compagnons sont arrivé à néraka (le siège des arméesdragon). notre ami flint est mort à godshome. fizban ou paladin a l'emmené au ciel quelque part. je ne peux pas m'aider mais j'ai pleuré un peu quand je me compte qu'il est vraiment mort. bien que j'ai su déjà ça. comme j'ai dit avant, je dis encore. ces personnages sont plus réel à moi que les gens réel. je me sens leur peine, leur amitié, leur amour pour l'un l'autre entre kitiara et tanis. caramon et raistlin. tika et caramon. lauranalanthalasa (le général d'or) et tanthalasa (J"ADORE LES NOMS D'ELFS). je me sens desolée pour taz. le meilleur ami de flint. the price to pay for having grown attached to people. letting them go would be difficult and long.

tu me manques encore. pendant j'étais en route chez mes parents. il pleuvait. je t'ai envoyé un sms et tu m'as repondu. je me rappelle ton sourire. ton visage. c'est comme le soleil. je vois notre photos. je me rappelle quand nous serions passer des temps ensemble. pendant le déjeuner. nous parlerions et nous bavarderions. j'ai ouvert mon sac a dos et j'ai trouvé des piécettes. 10 peso coins. je te les donnerai parce que tu les voulais. (sigh). nous prendrions une promenade autour la ville. j'étais le plus heureux homme dans le monde. mais je n'oublie jamais que je suis mort-vivant. et toi, tu n'es pas comme moi. c'est pourquoi j'avais besoin de partir. notre amitié devenait impossible. ne deteste pas moi .. mon ami. mon amour.

pour maintenant j'ai fait une pause de krynn parce que j'ai réussi à obtenir une copie d'un autre livre qui est interessant -- THE GOLDEN COMPASS (Les Royaumes du Nord). ce livre était interdit par l'église catholique. et quelque amis qui sont catholiques avaient envoyé emails autour. et c'est exactement pourquoi il faudrait que je dois le lire. ^_^ qui décide ce que je lis ou ce que je regarde? l'église? jamais!!

dahil sa taga englatera ang nagsulat ng librong ito. may mga ilan ilang salita na ginamit dito ay hindi ko naiintindihan. malalalim o hindi mga pangkaraniwang ginagamit na ingles. hindi siguro pangkaraniwan sa pilipinas. mamamasdan talaga na iba ang ingles ng mga amerikano sa mga taga inglatera. para bang may kababawan ang ingles ng mga amerikano. dahil hango sa ingles ng mga amerikano ang ingles ng mga filipino. mas mababaw pa lalo ang alam kong ingles. sa aking paningin. sa sobrang lalim. sa tingin ko kailangan kong may katapat na dictionario upang mabigyan ko ng kabuuang kahalagahan ang kwento. hindi siguro nakakapagtaka sa ngayon na hindi pa rin ako tapos. mag iilang linggo na. héhé

lapin brun - oo nga pala. bago ko makalimutan. inalis ko na SIYA sa buhay ko. hindi naging mahirap sapagkat wala rin naman talagang patutunguhan iyon. alam ko ito nuon pa. sa una pa lamang. siguro nabulag ako ng pagasang sakali ngang may mangyayari. pero napagtibayan na ng panahon. wala talaga. ginawa ko ang lahat ng puede kong gawin. at hindi ako naging maramot sa kanya. bagkos. baka nga sumobra pa. hindi naman sayang ang panahon iniukol ko dahil sa bawat minuto na kami'y magkasama ay walang ibang dulot kungdi ang walang katamubas na ligaya. héhé kahit na naguusap lang kami. siguro napaniwala ako ng husto sa nilikhang panaginip na ako din ang may kagagawan. (sigh) habang may bukas ..

l'image de soi

depuis j'étais plus jeune jusqu'a maintenant que je suis vieux, j'ai une image mauvaise de soi. quelquefois, je me sens que je suis malade mental. et peut-être, c'est vrai. ma toute première mémoire étais de mon frère qui a le nez pointu. et j'ai une nez flat. on nous a comparé souvent. il est beau. je suis laid. il apparait comme nos ancêtres espagnols. je'apparais comme nos ancêtres philippin. comme j'ai grandi, j'ai developpé une maladie mentale que je ne serais jamais assez bon. alors, j'avais envie d'être plus differente.

for beautiful people, their self image are tied up to how they look on the outside. for people like me, mine is tied up to the things i can do and how well i can do them. this is why i feel down when i am in a situation where the skills that are needed are not the things that i am good at. like social skills. being articulate. being sociable. all these pose a big challenge for me. i feel better now that i am back in the saddle so to speak. i have been neck deep in programming work (instead of being neck deep in self doubt and constantly trying to prove yourself). both in technidata and kerry. but there lies another problem, i do not seem to have time for anything else. héhé.

voici quelque chose qui m'interesse. How Do I: Use Cascading Style Sheets for Web Page Layout? i am no web designer just yet. i have been approaching web page layout using tables since i started web development. recently i heard that usage of tables for layout is passé and that divs are the way of the future. tables are admittedly very hard to manage as they have a natural tendency to become bloated. i have downloaded this video for my benefit. my brother, who i have been trying to mentor in web development, might also enjoy it.