FITNA

Le film anti-Coran d'un député populiste néerlandais. tu peux télécharger le film de ICI.

[snip] FITNA s'attarde sur (dwells upon) des exécutions en Irak ou des prêches d'imams contre les homosexuels et les juifs. Evoquant "les Pays-Bas demain", il montre des femmes voilées (raped women), des enfants ensanglantés (bloodied children) et des homosexuels pendus (hanged homosexuals). Il se poursuit par un bruit de page déchirée : non pas celle du Coran, comme cela avait été annoncé, mais celle d'un annuaire téléphonique : Geert Wilders veut ainsi inviter les musulmans à "déchirer (to tear down) eux-mêmes un texte qui propage la haine (hate)". "Les musulmans vous demandent de la place pour l'islam, mais l'islam ne vous en fait aucune", souligne aussi le texte. Il conviendrait de "vaincre" cette religion, comme ont été vaincus le nazisme et le communisme, a expliqué le député.

[snip] "Si des musulmans se sentent insultés par de telles images, ils sont insultés par la vérité", a-t-il déclaré. IF MOHAMEDANS FEEL INSULTED BY SUCH IMAGES, THEY ARE INSULTED BY THE TRUTH. Geert declared.

.. mais n'est-ce pas la vérité pour toutes les réligions qui sont judéo-chrétienne?

après 5 mois, éthan est devenu très mignon! il est maintenant plus adorable. il n'a pas le visage des Sales (la famille métisse de ma mère) mais j'aime ses yeux. je rappelle des personnages de pokémon héhé.

à propos de l'arrangement entre K et moi. je continue à prendre mes repas sans riz. à sa place, je prends des nouilles (noodles) et plus legumes, et de la viande. i had a huge relapse last weekend. i smoked 5 sticks. it was not really a relapsed as i am not really going back to smoking. its just a little disappointing that i run to it (that its an option) everytime i feel anxious.

38 QUESTIONS que j'ai copié de cessna.

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night? quand (K) m'avait donné une caresse sur le cou parce qu'elle chatouillait bien.
2. What were you doing at 0800? je suis allé au bureau.
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? picking my nose.
4. What happened to you in 2006? j'étais à cébu. j'ai écrit un petit article.
5. What was the last thing you said out loud? j'ai oublié.
6. How many beverages did you have today? deux tas du café, c2, fit and right, de l'eau.
7. What color is your hairbrush? noir.
8. What was the last thing you paid for? déjeuner.
9. Where were you last night? dans l'appartement.
10. What color is your front door? blanche.
11. Where do you keep your change? dans mon sac à dos.
12. What’s the weather like today? il fait pleut et il fait beau aussi.
13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor? double dutch?
14. What excites you? hmm .. you mean sexually, une caressse sur le cou?
15. Do you want to cut your hair? non pas vraiment.
16. Are you over the age of 25? oui .. j'ai 35 ans.
17. Do you talk a lot? oui je parle beaucoup à mes amis quand je suis avec eux
18. Do you watch the O.C.? non.
19. Do you know anyone named Steven? je connais un stephen?
20. Do you make up your own words? hmm peut-être?
21. Are you a jealous person? absolutement.
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’. Aileen?
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’. Kiks.
24. Who’s the first person on your received call list? je ne sais pas?
25. What does the last text message you received say? ah, not really baka dun lang yun malapit sa metro badminton ... un message de benjo.
26. Do you chew on your straw? oui.
27. Do you have curly hair? oui.
28. Where’s the next place you’re going to? au libraire où je vais sortir et diner avec des amis.
29. Who’s the rudest person in your life? maintenant c'est le gars de travaille qui s'appelle M
30. What was the last thing you ate? la nouille (noodles).
31. Will you get married in the future? non.
32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks? je pense que Death Note 1 et 2 sont bon.
33. Is there anyone you like right now? oui il y a quelqu'un .. ^_^
34. When was the last time you did the dishes? j'ai oublié.
35. Are you currently depressed? non.
36. Did you cry today? ce matin. je pensais que K m'a quitté.
37. Why did you answer and post this? je suis juste curieux.
38. who else would you request to answer these? tout le monde!

l'arrangement

nous avons négocié un arrangement la semaine dernière. je vais arrêter de prendre du riz dans mes repas sauf le dimanche pour que je vais perdre le poids. et puis, tu vas arrêter de fumer. pour l'instant tout va bien. aujourd'hui pour déjeuner, j'ai pris du rouleau de printemps (spring rolls), du pain de fromage (cheese bread), et C2. et puis hier pour diner, j'ai eu de la soupe de miso, de la viande, du tofu. et après, du café. il n'est pas difficile comme j'ai précédement pensé surtout quand il n'y a personne avec nous. il est different et plus difficile quand il y a d'autres près de nous qui mangent du riz.

nous avons plusieurs de querelles les semaines dernières. je suis vraiment désolée. je ne veux jamais t'a fait souffrir. tu sais que je t'aime toujours. quand nous parlions sur le toit de notre appartemment. je blesse quand je t'ai vu que tu criais. tu m'a vu aussi. je criais comme toi. je ne ferais jamais ça encore. jamais encore.

thanks to (b). i was able to follow you to your house in greenwoods. i was so afraid of us being over. i was angry at you for leaving without even saying goodbye. without a word. i thought it was so inconsiderate of you. did you do it out of spite? i am afraid to ask. you knew perfectly well that it was going to hurt me. i wanted to get drunk. i wanted to forget the pain. when we got to your house. i was happy to see your face. you werent angry but you were smiling back at me. you seem to be ignoring me at the beginning but later you seem to have forgiven me. you were giving me tender caresses at the end of the night. i dont care who is right or wrong anymore. i just care about you. i understand whats happened. instead of taking care of your feelings. i was too pre occupied of my own feelings. i was selfish. pardonne-moi s'il te plait. mon amour. mon meilleur ami. ma vie ...

simoun reviens à manille. simoun qui vient d'amérique, qui part la mecque de programmeurs MS. je te comprends quand tu parles de la tristesse d'être l'étranger, très loin de ta famille et tes amis. je comprends bien. i understand too well. i remember coming home from work. the front yard was dark lit only by the lamp post across the streets. i could barely make out the other houses beside mine. it was soo depressing. no amount money was worth that feeling of being alone. i opened the door to the kitchen. i was alone. life was empty. being abroad is not as exciting for me anymore. surtout maintenant que je pense que j'ai trouvé ma destinée. je suis si heureux que j'ai revenu aux philippines. simoun a raison. la vie dans les philippines est plus riche et plus complete.

ce weekend, je me dédis d'une promesse. j'ai fumé. 20 pesos. j'espere que c'est juste pour aujourd'hui ..

la grève des transports

nous avons réveillé tot ce matin. nous sommes allé au EDSA mais on ne pourrait pas trouver quelque bus ni jeepneys. ils ont une grève. les rues étaient vide sauf pour les voitures privé. et puis pour les autres comme moi qui n'a pas de la voiture. on s'est rendu compte qu'on doit marcher. de mantrade à valero, je me suis reussi à arriver au travail 1 heure plus tard. nous avons eu de traverser un pont au EDSA. sur le pont, il y a des enfants des rues et d'autres mendiants (beggars). en fait, le pont était rempli de mendiants, des pauvres, des ordures (rubbish - cigarette butts, fastfood trash, et spit) .. eewww ..

je lisais le blog d'allan . des enfants des rues (streetchildren) les ont attaqué. imagines ça! allan et sa femme (jen) sont assez gentil créatures commes des fées. éthereaux comme les sidhes les dirigeants d'arcadie. ils sont philippin-chinois héhé.

j'ai remarqué qu'il y avait plusieurs grèves cette année. les pauvres apparaissent plus visible, plus violent, plus puissant .. pendant l'un des grèves à ayala avenue. j'allais chez moi. trois femmes m'a approché et elles m'ont demandé si j'avais des monnaie. j'ai souri et je les ai dit que je n'ai pas de l'argent. plus tard, un autre coin, une autre groupe de trois femmes m'a approché. elles m'ont demandé la même chose. ce temps, je les ai cri que leur compagnons étaient sur l'autre coté. c'est fou! n'est-ce pas?

when i see them roaming the streets. i ask myself if this is what our society thinks of what is humane. to have them be born and suffer a life of hunger, poverty, and dependence. is it not more humane if we had them not to have been conceived at all (via contraceptions). why are we allowing people who cant afford to have children, have children.

je me sens comme je suis dans la chanson EVE OF DESTRUCTION par mcguire barry. une bonne chanson .. si nous allons au karaoke ce weekend. je vais chanter cette chanson sans aucun doute.

The eastern world it tis explodin',
violence flarin', bullets loadin',
you're old enough to kill but not for votin',
you don't believe in war, what's that gun you're totin',
and even the Jordan river has bodies floatin',
but you tell me over and over and over again my friend,
ah, you don't believe we're on the eve of destruction.

Don't you understand, what I'm trying to say?
Can't you see the fear that I'm feeling today?
If the button is pushed, there's no running away,
There'll be noone to save with the world in a grave,
take a look around you, boy, it's bound to scare you, boy,
but you tell me over and over and over again my friend,
ah, you don't believe we're on the eve of destruction.

Yeah, my blood's so mad, feels like coagulatin',
I'm sittin' here, just contemplatin',
I can't twist the truth, it knows no regulation,
handful of Senators don't pass legislation,
and marches alone can't bring integration,
when human respect is disintegratin',
this whole crazy world is just too frustratin',
and you tell me over and over and over again my friend,
ah, you don't believe we're on the eve of destruction.

Think of all the hate there is in Red China!
Then take a look around to Selma, Alabama!
Ah, you may leave here, for four days in space,
but when your eturn, it's the same old place,
the poundin' of the drums, th pride and disgrace,
you can bury your dead, but don't leave a trace,
hate your next-door-neighbour, but don't forget to say grace,
and you tell me over and over and over and over again my friend,
ah, you don't believe we're on the eve of destruction.

je voudrais savoir ce qui est l'amour

take this an oppurtunity for you to find the job that you really like. you mentioned teaching. or i havent the chance to tell you about being a medical transcriptionist, which i heard from (N). hopefully the new job would be free from the harassment by the group you unluckily found yourself in at (the call center). this is also an oppurtunity for you to cite the reasons for your resignation. don't name names. i suggest for you to just mention specific instances of the harassment. the hostile environment would explain your low morale thus your low produtivity. and the actions you made like approach HR and its passive response. also i think it would be proprer to admit your limitations. be concise and less poetic.

you are going to apply for a job today? you can use the polo shirts we bought yesterday.. apparently XL in the states is maybe 4XL in the philippines. you look great in big shirts.

i know you are in pain yesterday night. i have already admitted it many times that im bad at this. you can tell me whats wrong. i dont like it if you hurt especially if i am the cause. if i had done something you need to tell me so id be aware of it. i wont make the same mistake. i need you to help me understand. is it about DOTA? i was hoping you trust me enought ot tell me. sometimes i feel there are always people around us which keeps you and me from talking. dis-moi.

enfin, i think im just not cut out to be in a relationship. i make a lot of stupid mistakes. im in love with you. i want to be with you. when you hurt. i hurt. i am going to be here for you. im sorry if you had a miserable time with me. i didn't wish it to be that way. i want you to be happy. you need to tell me what ive done. i'm not good at words. i'm not good at expressing myself. i'm just not good at speaking. when writing i feel i have better command of the words. i dont want you to be unhappy. if you feel you made a mistake with me. i am going to prepare for the worst. im going to be fine (not really). before i met you. i was resigned to living the rest of my days alone anyway. you are right. i am not good at it. i suspected that i didn't deserve you. this is proof of it. i end up hurting the people i love .. toujours, max

i want to know what love is by foreigner

I gotta take a little time,
a little time to think things over
I better read between the lines,
in case I need it when I'm older

Now this mountain I must climb,
feels like the world upon my shoulders
Through the clouds I see love shine,
it keeps me warm as life grows colder

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now,
I've travelled so far, to change this lonely life

I want to know what love is, I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is, I know you can show me

I'm gonna take a little time,
a little time to look around me
I've got nowhere left to hide,
it looks like love has finally found me

In my life there's been heartache and pain
I don't know if I can face it again
Can't stop now, I've travelled so far,
to change this lonely life

I want to know what love is, I want you to show me
I want to feel what love is, I know you can show me
I want to know what love is, I want you to show me
(And I wanna feel) I want to feel what love is
(And I know) I know you can show me

Let's talk about love - I want to know what love is
The love that you feel inside - I want you to show me
And I'm feeling so much love - I want to feel what love is
No, you just can't hide - I know you can show me
I want to know what love is (let's talk about love),
I know you can show me
I wanna feel it too - I want to feel what love is
I wanna feel it too, and I know and I know -
I know you can show me
Show me love is real, yeah -
I want to know what love is...

Gygax meurt

manunuod sana kami ng ciné kagahapon. pero habang kumakain kami ng hapunan. bigla akong nakaramdam ng inis. parang lahat ng sinasabi sa akin ay pagkutya o paginsulto. iniisip ko na biro lang ito ng mga tao. i am a cheerful and quiet guy and i dont normally explode except on very specific situations. (1) i feel im cornered (2) i see someone i love cornered.

i remember seeing everyone laughing at something or someone. the story was about a certain (E) who i didnt want to be around with for reasons beyond the scope of this rant. they were telling me that i was going to have to deal with (E) anyway when i specifically expressed that i didnt want to. i was becoming agitated at the thought. but apparently noone was taking me seriously. everyone was laughing (at me). i exploded.

(K) approached me and told me everything. i felt even more stupid after. i was not ashamed for exploding. i thought i had every right to. i am sorry though for ruining (K)'s surprise and the whole plan for the night. i offered to just go through with it. but everything's ruined. im glad that i didnt say anything id regret.

(K) felt distant and occupied on the way home. nous avons pris un bus. this was it. (K) va me quitter et je serais seul encore comme toujours. soupire. i cried in public. something i dont usually do. i cried because everything has changed. there was no more tender caress. there was no warm hand holding mine while we wait to get off the bus. j'étais seul. and then the voices came back. i didnt deserve to be happy. it was all my fault. i am too emotional. i am out of control. peut-être c'est ma vraie destinée .. être seul .. :(

Dungeons & Dragons co-creator dies at 69 Saying goodbye to the grandfather of the role-playing game phenomenon. snip .. Dungeons & Dragons players create fictional characters and carry out their adventures with the help of complicated rules. The quintessential geek pastime, it spawned a wealth of copycat games and later inspired a whole genre of computer games that's still growing in popularity.

i started playing dungeons and dragons in college where i met with an odd group of nerds, outcasts, closet gays, writers, and artists (some of whom became lifelong friends). we found comfort in the worlds and people we created. i remember my first character. rod (rodrigo) the human mage. and our first encounter were giant ants. after casting sleep which didnt have any effect on the insects. i had to climb up a tree to escape. (sigh) .. the good old days ..

en commémoration de la disparition de gygax, le grand-père des jeux du role, j'ai souligné ceux MONDES DE DONJONS ET DRAGONS que j'ai visité à travers des années surtout quand j'étudiais à l'université.

* Le monde de Faucongris (Greyhawk)
* Les Royaumes oubliés (Forgotten Realms)
* Oriental Adventures (Extrême-Orient)
* Al-Qadim (Mille et une nuits)
* Maztica (conquête du Nouveau Monde)
* Chronique, une série de suppléments pour les règles de base
* Lancedragon (univers épique)
* Dark Sun (dark fantasy)
* Spelljammer (cosmic fantasy)
* Planescape (basé sur les voyages interplanaires)
* Ravenloft (horreur gothique)
* Birthright (où les joueurs incarnent des rois et dirigeants)
* Rokugan, le monde du Livre des cinq anneaux (type Japon médiéval fantastique) pour le Guide de l'Orient (Oriental Adventures de la 3e édition)
* Kalamar (low-fantasy réaliste)
* Eberron
* Midnight (la résistance dans un monde conquis par le Mal)