cost-benefit analysis

j'ai fait cette liste ce matin afin de calculer s'il va arriver ou si c'est une bonne chose. j'ai mis +1000 pour un item (amitié) parce qu'elle est la plus précieuse pour moi. mais la question reste .. est-ce qu'il m'aime assez vraiment qu'ils se quitte? c'est importante que tu declares tes sentiments. je ne suis pas certain comment je ferai ça .. le résultat de mon analyse est peu concluant. T_T

[PRO]
cute mag dota +100
cute mag magic +100
SUPER cute siya +100
mabait +100
humourous +100
agnostic? +100
ok kausap +100
barkada +1000
real feelings +100
intelligent +100
level headed +100
down to earth +100
non smoker +100
charmant +100
honest +100
sa taas siya +100
sa baba ako +100
open-minded +100
happy person siya +100
emotionally available +100
cute toenails niya +100
cute magsalita ng ingles +100
compassionate +100

[CON]
dota pero di ako magaling -100
magic pero di ako magaling -100
low self esteem -100
pervert ako -100
di ako mamayaman -100
matanda na ako -100
smoker but trying to quit -100
immature -100
pinagaagawan siya -100
history of cheating (both sides) -100
di ako magaling o walang akong alam dun -100
takot sa mumu at dilim -100
level 2 lang ako -100
level 10 siya -100
against ethical values (taken siya) -100
ako tamad sa bahay maglilinis -100
nothing to offer except lab -100
feelings not reciprocated -1000
depressed person ako -100
delusional na may chance ako w/ anyone -100
naa ko patay na kuko. -100
trying hard ako palagi -100
arrogant ako -100

pro total = 3100 +
con total = 3100 -
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total = 0 +/- (peu concluant)

what will happen if the king of the castle finds out? naiisip ko na yung scenario eh. i'm walking then a black van keels over the side of the road. a couple of muscular men wearing black masks over their faces gets off carrying huge automatic firearms. i stopped unable to decide on what is the best course of action. i could summon a griffon imperial but that would take too much time. which i do not have. one guy points the gun at me. and another commands in a booming voice. "thou shall not covet thy neighbor's wife"

several bullets hits me. i struggled to keep standing but my knees gave way. i looked down on my shirt which is now damp and red with my own blood. i fell on on my back and stared at the night sky. wishing i had more time .. ayan .. hahahahha yana ng mangyayari pag nalaman ng hari ng castillo na may gusto ako sa princess niya hahahahhaa.