une époque sombre

ito yung laro na nilalaro namin. mga barkada ko nung college. ako character ko ay si guillaume (guy, pour faire court). dungeons and dragons ang tawag sa game na ito. nakahiligan ko kamakailan na maglaro bilang isang pari. isa palang pari si guy. sa simbahan ni corellon.

quand j'ai lu cet article dans le journal (lemonde), je ne peux pas m'aider de penser que ce sont les plus sombres de notre histoire. sinon, c'est commence.

la charia pourrait jouer un role dans le système judiciaire en grande-bretagne. Le chef de la magistrature d'Angleterre et du Pays de Galles, Lord Nicholas Addison Phillips of Worth Matravers, a estimé, jeudi 3 juillet, que la charia, la loi islamique, pouvait jouer un rôle au sein du système judiciaire britannique. "Il n'y a pas de raisons pour lesquelles les principes de la charia, ou de tout autre code religieux, ne pourraient pas être le fondement d'une médiation ou d'autres formes alternatives de résolution des conflits", a déclaré le Lord Chief Justice dans un discours prononcé au centre islamique de l'est londonien. Mais en cas d'"échec à se conformer aux termes agréés" par une médiation ayant tenu compte de la charia, "les sanctions seront issues des lois d'Angleterre et du Pays de Galles", a-t-il souligné.

i am dismayed whenever i read about advanced countries like britain fall prey to religion. i do not understand it. why do we give it power over us. history and current events are pretty clear what happens when religion takes over the state. theocracy over democracy. now sharia law is being debated? it is insane. it is evident that we are seeing one of the outcomes of immigration. a culture shift.

i can imagine loosing all the freedoms that we enjoy today. freedom of speech. freedom of thought. i can imagine under the sharia law of people being mistreated for being women, for being gays, for being of another religion, or for being without religion. and it is a lot worse in reality in places where it is the in place.

vive les suédois

Creationism to be banished from Swedish schools [snip] "Pupils must be protected from all forms of fundamentalism," said Education Minister Jan Björklund to Dagens Nyheter .. Some Christian schools teach biology students that the world and the organisms on it were created by a supreme being. This is often presented as another valid scientific theory alongside evolution - something most scientists reject .. Religious Education will remain on the curriculum and it will still be allowed to start the school day with prayers. But in classes teachers will be expected to stick to the curriculum.

in the philippines, public school teachers themselves indoctrinate young minds with their own brand of religion by forcing their pupils to prayer. had the teacher been a member of the INC (l'église du christ) they would dissuade pupils from making the sign of the cross - a catholic tradition. had the teacher been catholic they would make everyone pray as they do. regardless if the pupil was mohameddan or buddhist. i have not seen or heard of any teacher being reprimanded for doing this. and worse, i have witnessed the installation of religious sculptures in public schools. no wonder our society remains superstitious. it starts with the children. our public schools do not have respect for the students own beliefs.

le jollijeep

si tu n'avais pas encore entendu parler de LICA DE GUZMAN. j'ai trouvé par hasard quelque de ses vidéos dans l'internet (youtube). et j'ai trouvé aussi quelque de ses videos du jun anteola. je l'aime plus quand elle chante en français.

je crois encore (i still believe)


prendre un enfant par la main (to take a child by the hand)


ATHEIST NATION. je lisais le site atheistnation et j'ai trouvé les vidéos suivants par donexodus2. je les ai vu et j'ai posté un sommaire pour chaque preuve dans sa liste. j'adore juste SCIENCE!! malgré toutes les preuves, c'est difficile à croire qu'il y a beaucoup de gens encore qui continuent à croire à la superstition. les 4 preuves, qui donexodus2 (de youtube) avait donné, sont les suivantes: (part 1) neanderthal mitochondrial DNA (mtDNA), chromosomal fusion, retroviral DNA. (part 2 ) et summation.

1. neanderthal mitochondrial DNA - hominids existed. neanderthals had music and buried their dead. the mtDNA illustrates that neanderthals are far from human. they were VERY not human.

2. chromosomal fusion - chromosome two is a fused pair of chromosomes that are still found separated in other primates.

3. retroviral DNA - virus that became part of the genome. illustrates human's common ancestry by comparing between existing retroviral DNA in other primates.

4. summation - the combination of embryology, genetics, anatomy, biology, etc of the different scientific disciplines confirms evolution.

JOLLIJEEP. pangalawang beses ko nang mananghali sa jollijeep (dyolee dyeep). dito kami kumain ni K kahapon. sa simula't sipol pa lamang. kahit nuong unang panahon. nuong febrero 1996 akong nagsimulang magtrabajo at alam ko na at namamasid ko na ang version ng carenderia sa makati - ang jollijeep.

iniiwasan ko lang nuon dahil ito ay nabigyan ng reputation na hindi malinis. PERO malinis naman sa aking paningin ang mga pagkain. at higit sa lahat, sari sari ang ulam at syempre ang walang kamatayang kanin. may pang dessert pa na saging. at softdrinks. Php 50 pesos lang. saan ka makaka kita ng ganun kamura at kasarap sa ciudad.

di ko malubos maisip bakit hindi ako kumakain nuon sa jollijeep. alam ko na! kasi maarte ako nuon. héhé. ang tawag dati namin sa mga maaarte ay mga yuppies na sa kasalukuyang nalalapit ang kilos at salita sa mga coño. pero may karagdagang kahulugan ang dalawa sa akin. ito yung pagpapanggap na mayaman. nga pala. ang salitang coño ay cunt sa ingles nabasa ko sa wordreference.com. hehe bulgar pala ang salitang yan.

10 questions

10 questions qu'un athée ne pourrait pas repondre bien du site de john paraiso. je vais les repondre plus tard quand j'ai le temps ..

1. origins - scientific theory of evolution. big bang theory.
2. the problem suffering, sickness, and death
3. cure for man's suffering, esp. her existential loneliness
4. meaning to human activity - jean paul sartre.
5. intrinsic value - there is no instrinsic value.
6. morality - humanism.
7. government - socialist and liberal.
8. religion - religion is institutionalized and legalized superstition.
9. authority
10. death - we are worm food. we will all decompose. it is then truly imperative to live life to the fullest. example to love deeply as if there is no tomorrow. we know only of this life.

laiya aplaya batangas

je suis à padre garcia. pendants les autres acheteraient des trucs. par hasard, j'ai trouvé un café d'internet en route à la plage avec ma famille sauf mon père qui a resté chez pacita. je pense qu'il était trop fatigué pour voyager.

its good business. religion. why else would they have outlets all over the city in every block. taking in profit by requiring citizens of the state to come every week or else burn in hell? -- in the parish sto. rosario san pedro laguna, the parish priest responded to the question of opening its books for public scrutiny. he said and i quote .. “bukas lang ang libro sa mga nagbibigay ng donation sa simbahan” .. its not very transparent then. -- when people go to church and give money. they are thinking its being given to charity. but how much of it really goes to charity. and how much goes to the legal defense of pedophiles among their rank?

spore

Bangkal Makati.

SPORE est un simulateur de vie complètement original, créé par Will Wright, le papa des Sims. Un jeu où toutes les possibilités s'offrent à vous : création, exploration, colonisation ... Le désormais légendaire Will Wright travaille au développement de ce titre multi-plateformes.

it seems good as it illustrates (accurate or not) rudimentary ideas of the science of evolution. we all know how much we need that - the rational approach, especially at times like this when superstition and ignorance reigns supreme. despite the huge amounts of empirical evidence against it. science itself is threatened when bible schools take over america teaching their kids fairy tales. we need to teach children rational thinking. that nothing just magically exists. it takes time. it's a long process of mutation and natural selection.

i'm still not sure if i am going to get one for myself. i was never a fan of the sims except sim city. and i remember sim tower. the game seemingly became more bloated as with the operating system it ran on. it became too big and cumbersome to play. i hope its different for SPORES. the core idea of guiding evolution of your species is sound. and might even be fun!! judging from the few SCREEN SHOTS i have seen over the internet about this game however, i was not very impressed. i hope they compensate with quality music. mais qu'est-ce que t'en penses?

pinoy_atheist@yahoogroups.com> how did science influenced unbelief in gods/goddesses/supernatural?

in the ancient times when people worshipped the weather and the heavens. people didn't have an accurate understanding of nature and this lead to incorrect decision making. anything they didnt understand. they attribute to something beyond nature. the supernatural. i am thinking. this still happens to this day. something nice happens and people immediately "thank god".

thru science we have a closer understanding of nature. we know that when it rains. this is due to precipitation in the clouds. not so much about an unseen being which wants to cause heavy traffic (when it rains), or cause floods as some sort of punishment.

this is a critical shift in the way we view and then solve the human condition. example - we are sick not because we are being punished. we are sick for all sorts of natural reasons. some of which we can fix. its wierd for me when people pray for health and still rely on science (for back up?). because it's fact that the science of medicine have discovered ways to cure and treat illnesses. it is not all for sure as our understanding of nature is still in progress. this is a distinction between praying for recovery because some god needs its retribution; and a systematic understanding of what is causing the illness and making appropriate action to fix it.

weak atheists

From the atheist forum (pinoy_atheists@yahoogroups.com) -- Has anyone encountered a weak atheist? Literally weak. Someone labeling himself as an "Atheist" when in fact he can't even defend what he believes and just using it for the glamour it can bring.

i would not say that there is no god. this makes me a "weak atheist". someone who would say that there is no god is a "strong atheist". note the distinction. i would say i do not know or that there is no evidence to it. like hawkins. he'd say it is highly unlikely.

i am honest to myself that i do not see visions, nor hear voices in my head as claimed by some theists that they converse with god. everything that happens has a logical explanation. and for those which doesn't seem to have a logical explanation. i would say that we need to study it further. thru science we have a closer and more accurate picture of nature. i dont want to jump into conclusions. when we hear thunder, it's not that thor decides to express himself, but rather it is the sound of lightning when it hits the air and produces the sonic shock wave.

i ask the same question of the theist. why believe? he's reason was good experiences, and good people around. this is an odd reason to believe in a god because good experiences and good people happens to everyone. including mohamedans and rizalistas. to hindus. and every type of theist. if good experiences and good people are to be taken as proof of existence then that makes the gods of other types of theists just as valid. existence then must be independent from our experiences.

i gave the example of the continent of africa. i have never been to africa. empirical evidence that is easily verifiable points to that africa exists. even though i have not actually been to africa. i know (by empirical evidence presented) that it exists. this is not the same when we are talking about gods and goddesses. as usual i fail to explain to our theist friends. and the conversation went to focus on subjectivity. suggesting that truth is subjective. the earth was never flat.

to prove the existence of anything we need to define what it is. a lion with wings is lion with additional appendages that enable it to fly. and this again was met with an odd response. that there is no need to define god (their version of it). this leaves me with the thought that theists don't know who or what they're worshipping. they just do wether it be a rock or the worm that lives beneath it. as long as it seemingly renders them with goodness in their lives. and there lies the danger.

i can see why they would continue to believe in gods and goddesses. some people need religion. to put meaning in their lives. having not read about jean paul sartre. they have been programmed. i suppose i have long since given up trying to educate them. this allows me to coexist with them. i am not seen as a threat anymore. nor would i want them to see me that way. its just a pity to witness ignorance and not be able to do anything about it. except maybe point it out.

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JUNG TOPOLOGY TEST

Your Type is INFP
Introverted 89
Intuitive 12
Feeling 38
Perceiving 22

[snip] gentle being .. develops imaginary playmates .. have the ability to see good in almost anyone or anything. Even for the most unlovable the INFP is wont to have pity .. Their extreme depth of feeling is often hidden, even from themselves, until circumstances evoke an impassioned response.

ces dernières semaines, j'ai vu les films suivants. j'allais écrire une critique de film pour chaque un mais j'ai devenu assez occupé. beginning to reconnect with asian films. just as i liked to watch jacky chan when i was growing up.

- death note 1 et 2 (japonais) - japanese lore
- mr vampire (chinois) - chinese vampire lore.
- street kings (americain) - typical hollywood.

playboy philippines

Playboy Philippines draws flak from Church - [snip] MANILA, Philippines - The new version of Playboy which will be distributed in the country drew flak Thursday from members of the Catholic church hierarchy who warned that it might have adverse effects on a nation already beset by moral problems. .. “Whatever is its contents, if it would destroy the moral stature of the people, it should not be permitted here," Quitorio said in a telephone interview.

nakikialam na naman ang simbahan sa kung ano ang puede at hindi natin basahin? panuorin? matutunan? at maranasan? at bakit naman hinahayaan ng mga tao ang panghihimasok ng simbahan sa kani kanilang mga buhay. tinanong ko ang kaibigan kong social worker ng gikan ng lyon france. tungkol dito na conservativo ang kulturang pinoy. at ang sabi niya ay hindi daw talaga tayo conservativo kung hindi tayo ay mga hipocrito pag dating sa tema ng SEX. napaka luma pa din ang ating pananaw sa sex. sinusundan pa din natin na ang SEX ay masama at nangyayari lang sa loob ng kasal (pre marital sex), madumi ang pagjajakol (self sex). at higit sa lahat hindi daw dapat nasasarapan dito (divorced from pleasure). galing ito lahat kay saint agustin. at ito ang patuloy na tinuturo ng simbahan at mga escuela nila. kaya sa tingin ko maraming retarded sa topic ng SEX. isa na ako duon.

makikita ang pagka hipokrito natin sa paglalabas ng playboy philippines. dahil siguradong bebenta ito sa takilya. (takilya??) importante sa akin ang freedom of expression. hindi ba't kayat nagkalat ang evangelization sa tv. sapagkat nahahayan silang mag pahiwatig sa nais nilang ipahiwatig.

may tanong ako .. bakit hindi siya katulad ng playboy na lahat natin nakagisnan nuong tayo ay nagbibinata. gagawin pang tago ang sexualidad? when we should celebrate sexuality as it is part of being human. regardes les bresiliens, les francais, les anglais .. les gens d'europe. ils s'amusent la vie parce qu'ils ne sont pas inhibé (inhibited).

FITNA

Le film anti-Coran d'un député populiste néerlandais. tu peux télécharger le film de ICI.

[snip] FITNA s'attarde sur (dwells upon) des exécutions en Irak ou des prêches d'imams contre les homosexuels et les juifs. Evoquant "les Pays-Bas demain", il montre des femmes voilées (raped women), des enfants ensanglantés (bloodied children) et des homosexuels pendus (hanged homosexuals). Il se poursuit par un bruit de page déchirée : non pas celle du Coran, comme cela avait été annoncé, mais celle d'un annuaire téléphonique : Geert Wilders veut ainsi inviter les musulmans à "déchirer (to tear down) eux-mêmes un texte qui propage la haine (hate)". "Les musulmans vous demandent de la place pour l'islam, mais l'islam ne vous en fait aucune", souligne aussi le texte. Il conviendrait de "vaincre" cette religion, comme ont été vaincus le nazisme et le communisme, a expliqué le député.

[snip] "Si des musulmans se sentent insultés par de telles images, ils sont insultés par la vérité", a-t-il déclaré. IF MOHAMEDANS FEEL INSULTED BY SUCH IMAGES, THEY ARE INSULTED BY THE TRUTH. Geert declared.

.. mais n'est-ce pas la vérité pour toutes les réligions qui sont judéo-chrétienne?

après 5 mois, éthan est devenu très mignon! il est maintenant plus adorable. il n'a pas le visage des Sales (la famille métisse de ma mère) mais j'aime ses yeux. je rappelle des personnages de pokémon héhé.

à propos de l'arrangement entre K et moi. je continue à prendre mes repas sans riz. à sa place, je prends des nouilles (noodles) et plus legumes, et de la viande. i had a huge relapse last weekend. i smoked 5 sticks. it was not really a relapsed as i am not really going back to smoking. its just a little disappointing that i run to it (that its an option) everytime i feel anxious.

38 QUESTIONS que j'ai copié de cessna.

1. Name one person who made you laugh last night? quand (K) m'avait donné une caresse sur le cou parce qu'elle chatouillait bien.
2. What were you doing at 0800? je suis allé au bureau.
3. What were you doing 30 minutes ago? picking my nose.
4. What happened to you in 2006? j'étais à cébu. j'ai écrit un petit article.
5. What was the last thing you said out loud? j'ai oublié.
6. How many beverages did you have today? deux tas du café, c2, fit and right, de l'eau.
7. What color is your hairbrush? noir.
8. What was the last thing you paid for? déjeuner.
9. Where were you last night? dans l'appartement.
10. What color is your front door? blanche.
11. Where do you keep your change? dans mon sac à dos.
12. What’s the weather like today? il fait pleut et il fait beau aussi.
13. What’s the best ice-cream flavor? double dutch?
14. What excites you? hmm .. you mean sexually, une caressse sur le cou?
15. Do you want to cut your hair? non pas vraiment.
16. Are you over the age of 25? oui .. j'ai 35 ans.
17. Do you talk a lot? oui je parle beaucoup à mes amis quand je suis avec eux
18. Do you watch the O.C.? non.
19. Do you know anyone named Steven? je connais un stephen?
20. Do you make up your own words? hmm peut-être?
21. Are you a jealous person? absolutement.
22. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘A’. Aileen?
23. Name a friend whose name starts with the letter ‘K’. Kiks.
24. Who’s the first person on your received call list? je ne sais pas?
25. What does the last text message you received say? ah, not really baka dun lang yun malapit sa metro badminton ... un message de benjo.
26. Do you chew on your straw? oui.
27. Do you have curly hair? oui.
28. Where’s the next place you’re going to? au libraire où je vais sortir et diner avec des amis.
29. Who’s the rudest person in your life? maintenant c'est le gars de travaille qui s'appelle M
30. What was the last thing you ate? la nouille (noodles).
31. Will you get married in the future? non.
32. What’s the best movie you’ve seen in the past 2 weeks? je pense que Death Note 1 et 2 sont bon.
33. Is there anyone you like right now? oui il y a quelqu'un .. ^_^
34. When was the last time you did the dishes? j'ai oublié.
35. Are you currently depressed? non.
36. Did you cry today? ce matin. je pensais que K m'a quitté.
37. Why did you answer and post this? je suis juste curieux.
38. who else would you request to answer these? tout le monde!

la grève des transports

nous avons réveillé tot ce matin. nous sommes allé au EDSA mais on ne pourrait pas trouver quelque bus ni jeepneys. ils ont une grève. les rues étaient vide sauf pour les voitures privé. et puis pour les autres comme moi qui n'a pas de la voiture. on s'est rendu compte qu'on doit marcher. de mantrade à valero, je me suis reussi à arriver au travail 1 heure plus tard. nous avons eu de traverser un pont au EDSA. sur le pont, il y a des enfants des rues et d'autres mendiants (beggars). en fait, le pont était rempli de mendiants, des pauvres, des ordures (rubbish - cigarette butts, fastfood trash, et spit) .. eewww ..

je lisais le blog d'allan . des enfants des rues (streetchildren) les ont attaqué. imagines ça! allan et sa femme (jen) sont assez gentil créatures commes des fées. éthereaux comme les sidhes les dirigeants d'arcadie. ils sont philippin-chinois héhé.

j'ai remarqué qu'il y avait plusieurs grèves cette année. les pauvres apparaissent plus visible, plus violent, plus puissant .. pendant l'un des grèves à ayala avenue. j'allais chez moi. trois femmes m'a approché et elles m'ont demandé si j'avais des monnaie. j'ai souri et je les ai dit que je n'ai pas de l'argent. plus tard, un autre coin, une autre groupe de trois femmes m'a approché. elles m'ont demandé la même chose. ce temps, je les ai cri que leur compagnons étaient sur l'autre coté. c'est fou! n'est-ce pas?

when i see them roaming the streets. i ask myself if this is what our society thinks of what is humane. to have them be born and suffer a life of hunger, poverty, and dependence. is it not more humane if we had them not to have been conceived at all (via contraceptions). why are we allowing people who cant afford to have children, have children.

je me sens comme je suis dans la chanson EVE OF DESTRUCTION par mcguire barry. une bonne chanson .. si nous allons au karaoke ce weekend. je vais chanter cette chanson sans aucun doute.

The eastern world it tis explodin',
violence flarin', bullets loadin',
you're old enough to kill but not for votin',
you don't believe in war, what's that gun you're totin',
and even the Jordan river has bodies floatin',
but you tell me over and over and over again my friend,
ah, you don't believe we're on the eve of destruction.

Don't you understand, what I'm trying to say?
Can't you see the fear that I'm feeling today?
If the button is pushed, there's no running away,
There'll be noone to save with the world in a grave,
take a look around you, boy, it's bound to scare you, boy,
but you tell me over and over and over again my friend,
ah, you don't believe we're on the eve of destruction.

Yeah, my blood's so mad, feels like coagulatin',
I'm sittin' here, just contemplatin',
I can't twist the truth, it knows no regulation,
handful of Senators don't pass legislation,
and marches alone can't bring integration,
when human respect is disintegratin',
this whole crazy world is just too frustratin',
and you tell me over and over and over again my friend,
ah, you don't believe we're on the eve of destruction.

Think of all the hate there is in Red China!
Then take a look around to Selma, Alabama!
Ah, you may leave here, for four days in space,
but when your eturn, it's the same old place,
the poundin' of the drums, th pride and disgrace,
you can bury your dead, but don't leave a trace,
hate your next-door-neighbour, but don't forget to say grace,
and you tell me over and over and over and over again my friend,
ah, you don't believe we're on the eve of destruction.

bonne année à tous

j'attends avec impatience la nouvelle année ...

d'abord, je voudrais continuer à parler des panzerbjornes par philippe pullman parce que je n'ai pas reussi à finir mon analyse sur ce sujet. les panzerbjornes sont les ours en armure (armored bears). ils ont leur propre royaume (SVALBARD) qui le magisterium a voulu envahir. je crois que c'est évidemment une métaphore.

what better way to invade a kingdom but by invading its culture (its spirit). this is exactly what happened during the age of colonization where christian europe settled in the americas and colonized many parts of africa and asia. this story is written all over church history. it starts by converting the ruling class, then the nobles and then finally, the peasants. it then demonizes/ridicules local traditions until eventually everything about their identity had been stamped out completely. much like the king of svalbard who was enticed to convert along with his confused subjects. it must have started that way too for the filipino natives when their datus (chieftains) converted (under the banner of the sword) to catholicism. it must have been awkward and confusing for their subjects. their way of life changed. their spirit gone. they've become slaves to the imported culture (as when the state becomes the puppet of the church). although not portrayed very well in the film, the metaphor was perfectly obvious in the book. as it is still happening today. churches would entice celebrities, politicians, people of influence. and the masses are easily swayed. women now are being used to find husbands to convert. and boy do i know a few who did.

j'ai passé le saint sylvestre (new year's eve) en gardant mes neveux et ma nièce. je ne pense pas que je n'aurai jamais, mais jamais, mes propre enfants. ils sont petit monstres surtout le nouveau né (le bébé). do no get me wrong. i like playing with kids. but a one year old who requires constant attention is just too much. this is a mystery to me why people still choose to have children. it takes too much of your time. i now understand why they have yaya's (baby sitters). people pay other people to deal with the problems. and then just be there for the photo shoot. and then proudly claim that it brings joy to their lives. QUEL MENSONGE!!

VOICI MES BONNES RESOLUTIONS
1. loose weight (very high priority). i stopped running when i moved back to the big city. and i unfortunately gained the little weight i lost when i did. i believe i even gotten fatter with the unhealthy food thats available, the stress, the traffic, the pressure of living with family (i have got to find an apt soon) ..

2. quit smoking for good .. i have been smoke free for 1 year. i relapsed one time when i was left at the house and there was this bottle of cigarettes at my brother's room. long story on how it got there. moment of weakness. i took one. but for the most part i have been committed to quitting .. forever and ever .. héhé .. ow i smoked weed this one time this year because this friend of mine who smoked a lot of pot offered it to me and i didnt want to hurt her feelings. i dont suppose that counts .. does it?

3. study french. bonjour!

4. to take things lightly. i over analyse and then im usually hard on myself. ::self pat on the shoulder:: there there its going to be ok ... ^_^ my biorythm says things will pick up soon.

5. be more available to my friends and family.

6. as most people would tell me .. get a social life (very low priority)

7. quit living in the past .. everything seems better and happier in the past. but thats an illusion as i tend to remember only the good times.

revisitant cébu

BONNES FETES A TOUS! HAPPY HOLIDAYS TO ALL! this is the greeting that i would use during this time of the year. it respects the beliefs of other people what ever the case that maybe. it does not presume that another is christian like when people would say MERRY CHRISTMAS which alienates and ultimately demeans non christian people and their own beliefs. NOT EVERYONE IS CHRISTIAN. jews celebrate the festival of lights and moslems celebrate the end of ramadan. many people are ignorant including myself about religious holidays of other religions. another greeting which i found to be very acceptable is PEACE BE WITH YOU. although its been used by catholics during their mass service, it has a solid secular quality about it. and so .. je dois dire .. que la paix soit avec toi mon ami ..

four months. i find myself boarding the plane back to cebu. i am excited to see the city that i have considered home for almost 5 years. i longed for the fresh air, the relaxed atmosphere, being away from it all, which is how i wanted to spend the holidays. over the past couple of days, i have been swamped with programming work. i wanted to get away from it just for a while.

i was also hoping id get some hard earned dough but i suppose that has to wait as well. there was a slight complication. i was furious but i also know that i need only to be more patient. mother was furious when she heard.

i have not been away that long but ive noticed some changes while i was away. there are new office buildings. mall extensions. new arrangments at the supermarket. new restaurants (fastfood) and apartments. cebu is clearly and rapidly developing.

i had lunch with some old friends. a reunion. it was nice to be them reminiscing about "the good old days". we are only given this brief moment yet again. this makes it rather special. compounded with having to deal with saying goodbye all over again. and it did feel like goodbye.

er .. max?? breathe ..

my visit was not just about reunions and feeling down and empty after. i did need to bring back some books, a computer monitor, and some clothing i managed to leave behind last time i was here. i slept in my old room. it felt strange. it felt like i was home. i was a ghost come back to haunt the place i frequented in while i was alive. it irks me that there is no going back except in my mind. and its vague. everything is vague. i could have just imagined it all. encore une fois, tu me manques bien mon ami .. tu me manques toujours. (sigh)

fortunately for ghis who happened to need someone to deliver an airplane ticket, i was happy to take the errand. she left for france and will be back next year. whenever i am with her and her friends (who are italians) i can't help but feel inferior and different. i told ghis about it. i think she understood what i was talking about. she doesn't understand why i felt that way. neither do i. am i less of a human being? this is a pinoy mentality we are so familiar with, something i need to unlearn. or this is something more personal. a mental sickness of feeling constantly inadequate.

le baptême d'éthan

évidemment, parce que ma famille sont catholique. c'est sans surprise que mon plus nouveau neveu étais baptisé ce matin, comme un catholique. san son accord. mais pourquoi? je les ai demandé. j'ai essayé d'expliquer que ce n'est plus nécessaire parce que selon le pape catholique (ex-nazi)- tous les enfants sont né dans l'état de grace (sauf peut-être les enfants qui sont juifs?). que ils sont sans péché originel. bien sur, ils ne me croient pas.

see how it works. over the centuries they scare you into joining the church. baptise your children or they go to hell! .. until the time when its become a tradition. just simply reverse the original ruling. but dont make this a headline. people might get the idea that the church is not truly necessary.

i have finally watched the movie golden compass. i was very disappointed with the movie. although it was faithful to the general plot, it failed to convey the same level of excitement and dread that it had in the book. to put it mildly .. it lacked soul. if the story had been human, the movie would have been someone who had lost its daemon. by this time i believe most people would have heard about it. or have watched it themselves. so it would be okey if i mention the parts which went missing in it.

1. first, the magisterium was heavily watered down into a regular bad guy. for those who havent read the books. the magisterium is controled by the vatican. even if it did maintain its primary intent, that is to control mankind (his thoughts. his dreams. his life). the change of face made it less of a threat and therefore it was less intriguing. i felt that this was very unfortunate that prof. richard dawkins is once again right in his thesis. why is religion immune to scrutiny. but that is that another story. (another forum for that matter)

2. in the book i felt scared and utterly shocked at the discovery of the ghostly kid who lost his daemon. it was downplayed in the film. i couldnt feel any dread. but instead it felt like a walk in the park on a sunday afternoon where you ignore everything around you. in the book, the boy died. in the movie, they hinted on getting the daemon back. again this couldnt work. the enemy and what it was doing became an inconvenience rather than something to be afraid of. it took away the intensity of the scene. loosing your soul is suppose to be a very big deal. and yet the people just stood there as if the kid just lost a pet.

3. more later .. about the panserbjorne ..

à la croisée des mondes

As-tu rencontré ton daemon? C'est Antigone. He is modest, solitary, inquisitive, humble, and spontaneous. Rencontre ton daemon ici - site officiel

Catholic League condemns 'THE GOLDEN COMPASS' -- [snip] Atheism for kids. That is what Philip Pullman sells. It is his hope that ‘The Golden Compass,’ which stars Nicole Kidman and opens December 7, will entice parents to buy his trilogy as a Christmas gift. It is our hope that the film fails to meet box office expectations and that his books attract few buyers." [snip]

the catholic church had been banning science and fictional books and art films all over history. i can not imagine what it would be like had they the power to decide what we can read and watch. fortunately, the dark ages are over. we are free to read and watch as we please.

the golden compass is tome 1 of the trilogy entitled His Dark Materials. it's a fantasy world which has similarities to our own. i do not see anything atheistic about tome 1. contrary to what the catholic church is saying. early in the book it briefly (and by briefly i mean one time) mention zoroastrianism which is an ancient monotheistic religion that holds many similar concepts, stories with all abrahamic religions including christianity minus the fear mongering and guilt, (those have been entirely invented by jews, christians, and moslems). i rarely hear of zoroastrianism outside of atheistic circles. perhaps because atheists are more inclined to know about ancient religions. the fact that it is a major influence to christianity and naturally it has huge implications.

i enjoyed reading about the different factions of heroes and villains. the obvious separation of powers. there is oxford college which traditionally stood for social and scientific progress. the government, puppets of the magisterium which stands for totalitarian rule. one cant help but make the connection between the magisterium mentioned in the book and the catholic church with it's history of oppression of outsiders and suppression of freedom. the gyptians (similar to the fate of gypsies in europe). the free-spirited nomads who are subjects of prejudice, from which our main hero lyra belacqua will get most aid from. i was inspired by the magnificence of the panserbjorne (armored bears) and the alluring sorcières.

on page 239. there is, for the first time nearly the end of tome 1, a brief mention of the vatican. the power behind the magisterium and the clever precedent, refering to the practice of castration in catholic europe to preserve the soprano voice, to the awful cruelty that is happening in lyra's world -- a somewhat unclear attempt -- at what lengths is the magisterium willing to go to preserve "innocence" and at what costs.

my favorite part is the confrontation between the armored bears. i thought it a precise metaphor to how weak and potentially dangerous pretentions can become.

on se demande pourquoi j'avais devenu trop gros. voici pourquoi. i smoked weed (on occassion) and cigarettes (too much). i developed an oral fixation which made me eat more when i tried quitting. i was off and on. off and on again several times. one time i was off smoking for 6 months only to relapse because of some deep emotional incident. today. i am so big. things that i used to enjoy like running and biking. i am not able to do anymore. i am out of breath just climbing stairs. it is not healthy. today. i am smoke free for almost one year. i am so proud of myself. i never thought i could free myself of it. i do regret having abused my body. i ate and drunk too much. i regret having abused my spirit (my emotional well being - not the disembodied transparent ghost of an image that people believe in). i have been very hard on myself. ^_^ ah yes. depression made me eat a lot too. i develop the all too familiar cycle of blame. this is not uncommon among fat people.

flint forgefeu est mort

je lis le troisième livre des chroniques (les dragons d’une aube de printemps). les compagnons sont arrivé à néraka (le siège des arméesdragon). notre ami flint est mort à godshome. fizban ou paladin a l'emmené au ciel quelque part. je ne peux pas m'aider mais j'ai pleuré un peu quand je me compte qu'il est vraiment mort. bien que j'ai su déjà ça. comme j'ai dit avant, je dis encore. ces personnages sont plus réel à moi que les gens réel. je me sens leur peine, leur amitié, leur amour pour l'un l'autre entre kitiara et tanis. caramon et raistlin. tika et caramon. lauranalanthalasa (le général d'or) et tanthalasa (J"ADORE LES NOMS D'ELFS). je me sens desolée pour taz. le meilleur ami de flint. the price to pay for having grown attached to people. letting them go would be difficult and long.

tu me manques encore. pendant j'étais en route chez mes parents. il pleuvait. je t'ai envoyé un sms et tu m'as repondu. je me rappelle ton sourire. ton visage. c'est comme le soleil. je vois notre photos. je me rappelle quand nous serions passer des temps ensemble. pendant le déjeuner. nous parlerions et nous bavarderions. j'ai ouvert mon sac a dos et j'ai trouvé des piécettes. 10 peso coins. je te les donnerai parce que tu les voulais. (sigh). nous prendrions une promenade autour la ville. j'étais le plus heureux homme dans le monde. mais je n'oublie jamais que je suis mort-vivant. et toi, tu n'es pas comme moi. c'est pourquoi j'avais besoin de partir. notre amitié devenait impossible. ne deteste pas moi .. mon ami. mon amour.

pour maintenant j'ai fait une pause de krynn parce que j'ai réussi à obtenir une copie d'un autre livre qui est interessant -- THE GOLDEN COMPASS (Les Royaumes du Nord). ce livre était interdit par l'église catholique. et quelque amis qui sont catholiques avaient envoyé emails autour. et c'est exactement pourquoi il faudrait que je dois le lire. ^_^ qui décide ce que je lis ou ce que je regarde? l'église? jamais!!

dahil sa taga englatera ang nagsulat ng librong ito. may mga ilan ilang salita na ginamit dito ay hindi ko naiintindihan. malalalim o hindi mga pangkaraniwang ginagamit na ingles. hindi siguro pangkaraniwan sa pilipinas. mamamasdan talaga na iba ang ingles ng mga amerikano sa mga taga inglatera. para bang may kababawan ang ingles ng mga amerikano. dahil hango sa ingles ng mga amerikano ang ingles ng mga filipino. mas mababaw pa lalo ang alam kong ingles. sa aking paningin. sa sobrang lalim. sa tingin ko kailangan kong may katapat na dictionario upang mabigyan ko ng kabuuang kahalagahan ang kwento. hindi siguro nakakapagtaka sa ngayon na hindi pa rin ako tapos. mag iilang linggo na. héhé

lapin brun - oo nga pala. bago ko makalimutan. inalis ko na SIYA sa buhay ko. hindi naging mahirap sapagkat wala rin naman talagang patutunguhan iyon. alam ko ito nuon pa. sa una pa lamang. siguro nabulag ako ng pagasang sakali ngang may mangyayari. pero napagtibayan na ng panahon. wala talaga. ginawa ko ang lahat ng puede kong gawin. at hindi ako naging maramot sa kanya. bagkos. baka nga sumobra pa. hindi naman sayang ang panahon iniukol ko dahil sa bawat minuto na kami'y magkasama ay walang ibang dulot kungdi ang walang katamubas na ligaya. héhé kahit na naguusap lang kami. siguro napaniwala ako ng husto sa nilikhang panaginip na ako din ang may kagagawan. (sigh) habang may bukas ..

soulager les pauvres?

Church protest at Philippines condom plan. [snip] The president of the Catholic Bishops Conference of the Philippines, Archbishop Angel Lagdameo, told the Manila Standard Today that the money would be "better spent on education and poverty alleviation projects." [snip]

pouquoi est-ce que l'église continue interférer avec les affaires de l'état surtout quand elle ne paie jamais ses taxes? devant l'église pouvait critiquer le gouvernement sur la pauvreté et l'education, ils doit se regarder quand ils dépensent de l'argent sur ses églises. l'argent que les fidèles les ont donné, où est-ce qu'il va? je me suis demandé où. aider les pauvres ou aider padre damaso? quand je regarde aux autels (altars) .. moi, je suis allé quelque fois aux églises .. je n'ai rien dans ma esprit sauf la même chose - "better spent on education and poverty alleviation projects".

ignorance is what keeps us poor. we are superstituous. we think gods will solve our problems. we fail to recognize that there is a problem at all. we think that having not enough money, resources, and jobs to support the people, is not enough good a reason to manage the ever growing population.

ces sont grace et andrew. ils viennent de lexmark aussi mais comme moi ils ont déménagé de paradis à manille. nous avons déjeuné à kitaro.

why am i always intense? when i don't have anything to do with those things which i am intense about. when i ride the bus and see through the window, we pass by squatters living along the old railways. the squatters have taken over them rendering the whole system useless, at the taxpayers expense. i have seen it being used but it all seemed dilapidated and outdated. there is not a time when i didn't think that we all ought to throw a bomb at these criminals. set fire to their houses. these squatters. they devalue the land and the surrounding areas. they increase criminal activity. they pollute the rivers with their trash. they overwhelm government services which leave legitimate citizens, those who pay taxes, with nothing. they make lot of babies they can't support and then blame the government for their poverty. and these people decide who runs the government because the middle class are outnumbered. everyone has been looking out for the rights of these people. these criminals. who has been looking out for the rights of the middle class. those who HAVE BEEN paying taxes.

once in place, these contraceptives will raise and change the consciusness. we would become more responsible especially about bringing new lives to the world. when that happens, as it has happened in modern societies. quality of life will most certainly improve.

qui peut violer la loi?

encore une fois, un prêtre se dégager de la loi, parce qu'il est prêtre. c'est MERDE!! comme les prêtres à boston, leurs frères aux philippines peuvent aussi violer la loi de l'état. et l'église catholique continue les protéger et les autres comme lui, les PEDOPHILEs. pourquoi est-ce que nous le permettons? POURQUOI? les enfants. les victimes. ils ne sont pas d'importance?

PADRE DAMASO vit. josé rizal nous a mis en garde contre l'église et ses prêtres il y a cent ans. pourquoi est-ce que les gens sont encore ignorant. nous l'avons étudié au lycée et aussi à l'université. il n'y a plus des excuses. et pourtant, nous sommes là.

PRIEST GETS AWAY SCOT-FREE. [snip] “So what happened to the testimonies of the children? Just because he is a priest they will not charge him? This will follow the case against Fr. Jose Belciña where the victim just accepted payment. We respect the Catholic Church, but the church should also respect justice,” CAV Visayas head Thelma Chiong said. [snip] There were reports that Belciña paid the girl P300,000 to drop the case. [snip] “Besides, we are not dealing here with an ordinary human being. With due respect to the other religious sects, priests of the Roman Catholic Church are considered as an ‘alter ego’ of Jesus Christ when (they) perform confession and draw his power and authority to do so from the biblical passage “then he breathed on them and said, receive the holy spirit…” it said.

pour aborder un suget legère. ma famille vient de grandir. ma petite soeur vient d'accoucher de ethan benoit. oui tu l'as entendu bien. c'est comme le nom du pape. comme son mari est catholique passionné. elle n'est pas exactement très rational/logique. le prénom ETHAN vient de la bible qui signifie le fort. et son 2ème prénom BENOIT est français qui signifie le béni.

regarde les prénoms de mes neveux et ma niece. de ma grande soeur - stephen michel, margarite therese, christian tomas, angelo joaquin. et maintenant de ma petite soeur - ethan benoit. naging uso sa mga panahon na ito ang magkaruon ng dalawang pangalan. hindi ko alam kung bakit? nawala na din sa uso ang mga pangalan hango sa kastila o di kaya tunog kastila. napalitan ito ng mga pangalan na tunog ingles.

hier, nous sommes allés à l'hopital (alabang) et nous avons visité le bébé et sa mère. hindi ako pabor talaga sa pagpaparami pa ng mga tao sa mundo. lalo na sobrang na kaayo ang ating population. ang ibig sabihin nito ay may kakulangan sa resources. kalikasan tulad ng tubig at lupa, trabajo, at serbisyo ng gobyerno. imbis na magampanan ang mga pangangailangan ng kakaunting tao. marami tuloy ay nakakatanggap o nauubusan.

sa traffic at sa bilang ng mga bahay ng mga skwatter sa riles ng tren pa lamang, makikita na ito. sa kawalan ng sapat na trabajo o mga serbisyo publiko upang suportahan ang mga ito. sangkatutak ang mga batang lansangan, at mga batang walang mga magulang o sapat na pangangalaga sa mga ito. paano na sila? bahala na naman ang dios? bahala na naman si padre damaso? bahala na naman ang gobyerno? walang dahilan kung bakit gagawa ka pa ng bagong bata. di kaya dahil hindi talaga ito nais, napasubo na lang kung baga dahil hindi naging matalino at maingat sa katawan? or is it arrogance that we would like to see little versions of ourselves. nevermind the other children who are left to fend for themselves.

sino ba ang pabor sa pagpaparami ng population? aba syempre .. walang iba kung hindi ang simbahan kati-liko. siempre nga naman mas makakahakot sila ng mas maraming kita. kung mas marami tao ang kanilang magogoyo. dahil di natutugunan ang edukasyon. at nananatiling mangmang ang mga tao. ayun. tuloy ang ligaya ni padre damaso.

30 jours par Morgan Spurlock

as-tu vu l'émmision par morgan spurlock qui s'est appelé 30 jours sur le canal cable 2nd avenue? un episode. il s'agit une athée parmi les chrétiens (une famille chrétienne) pour 30 jours. c'est creé par le même gars qui a réalisé le film super size me. j'ai trouvé des scenes sur youtube [1/5]. les autres parties (de 2/5 à 5/5) sont aussi disponible la-bas.

opinion. the show was somewhat tamed i thought for general patronage. or dumbed down so to speak, so the general public will appreciate the effort with an open mind. it was also very careful on not making any judgement on either of the thesis. i liked the idea about people of different, not necessarily opposing creeds, living together harmoniously. i thought that it was a good starting point to bring up common misconceptions on both sides of the fence. it is significant because this is exactly what life is for us. atheists. our struggle to live among christians and other theists. mais ce n'est pas pour trente jours. c'est pour la vie entière.

"you think that being an atheist is being anti-religion? or anti-god?"
l'athée a demandé

one question that was brought up was where do atheists get their ethics since we don't believe in the bible. this is a typical reproach among christians about atheists. but is it not as bizarre to think that without a document telling us that something is wrong (to rape women, to abuse children, to steal), that we would think that it is perfectly alright to do them? i think ethics is personal (we decide for ourselves), cultural (a common consensus), and evolutionary (as what richard dawkins has pointed out in his lectures). cette partie dernière, je ne comprends pas encore. est-il génétique? je ne sais pas.

sur l'autre coté du monde. j'ai lu cet article. -- fundamentalist christian underage marraiges [snip] Warren Jeffs, leader of the Fundamentalist Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints, is charged with rape by accomplice in the case. As his trial opened, prosecutors said he told the girl she risked salvation if she refused to enter a religious union with her 19-year-old cousin. [snip] -- since it is "religion", that makes it legal/ethical?? this is the same line of thinking theists use to justify tithing, slavery, rape of women, murder, genocide, child abuse, terrorism and other horrible stuff most theists brush off as isolated cases. what surprises me is how complacent people have become. none, for example in my family who are catholics to the core, flinched when how the catholic church paid off victims of sex crimes of catholic priests 600M++ dollars so they wont press charges any further.

madrasah

DepEd pushes madrasah program [snip] MANILA, Philippines -- The Department of Education (DepEd) is stepping up its efforts to provide high-quality education in Muslim public schools through the madrasah program .. Under the program, the government will solicit "matching donations" from Malaysia and Brunei, its "partners in Southeast Asia for improving the quality of Muslim education in the country."

les écoles publique islamique? should public schools be labeled as islamic/catholic/whatever. should we be teaching lies to our children such as the long process of our existence, biologically speaking? that we didn't come from banana trees like in some fairy tale. nor did we just magically appeared out of nowhere. this is just one of the lies perpetuated by religion. i sight here for emphasis of what kind of lies they are known for. as the famous evolutionary biologist and author richard dawkins pointed out. there are no moslem/catholic/whatever children. there are just children of moslem/catholic/whatever parents who forcing their children to take on their own religion. these children are not given the freedom to choose for themselves. because by the time they develop the sense, they've already been programmed to reject reason (or other lies from other religions). why call it a public school? if it means to teach religion. why call it a school at all. why not just call it for what it is, a brain washing / indoctrination center.

i can see why the government agrees to this arrangement. it does not have much money. and most of the government budget goes to paying off the debt. not to education. think about the repercussions of this decision to our society. call me ignorant. what do they call those schools in the middle east and apparently all over europe as well, which teach hatred and extremism.

SA WAKAS GRADWEYT NA ANG UTOL KO!!

masaya kami kagabi. dahil nagmarcha na ang akong igsuhon. gradweyt na gyud sya. at sa lunes magsugod na siya sa canon, sa libis. hindi sangayon ang among magulang at mga lain na igsuhon na tanggapin niya yung sa canon. pero ang akong giingnon siya na .. gawin niya yung gusto niya. wag syang makikinig sa ibang tao o mas lalo na sa lipunan. siya ay malaya mag desisyon para sa sarili niya. pagkatapos ng ceremonias kumain kami sa teriyaki boy ng salmon sashimi, miso soup, kanin, piniritong tofu at giniling at iba pa. mura lang yung nakain namin. walo kami tanan. pero mga 3k lang nagastos namo. hehe.

quels les états des états-unis as-tu visité? many people ask me why i returned to the philippines. i constantly did ask myself during the early days of being back. i missed the hot water. the bath tub. the car. the tv shows. the easy access to quality porn. the enjoyable experience of driving. the famous places we often see on tv. the financial freedom. back then i was ready to give up my own identity.

i was not able to see the bigger picture. that i wasnt happy. and this is what CEBU taught me. im talking about having meaningful relationships with friends. i didnt have friends in the states. and i was neglecting the other most important part of my life. my family. looking back at this map. at the few places i have been too. this question came up again because another friend is considering coming back. and i can imagine that he has been receiving a deluge of reproach. he made a list of what matters. disadvantages and advantages. in the end, the best advice i could ever give him and anyone for that matter is .. do what YOU want (do not do what someone else wants).

des changements

pour ce site, je vais poster des articles que parlent d'atheisme. in this article, eve (adam's wife) got busy with some neanderthals. hehe. quand j'etais plus jeune, nous avons eu une histoire, elle parle de malakas (fort) et maganda (belle) qui appairaissent de l'arbe banane. une histoire comme l'histoire d'adam et eve. tous les deux expliquent l'origine d'etres humains. mais bien sur, elles sont juste des histoires. they stop being amusing passed adolescence. science offers a more interesting story and one that is most certainly closer to the truth.

CHINA'S EARLIEST MODERN HUMAN FOUND .. An early modern human from China dated to about 40,000 years ago adds to evidence that the first Homo sapiens sapiens occasionally mated with older human species such as Neandertals.

il faut que je fais des changements quand j'ai déménagé à la grande ville. j'ai besoin de me reveiller en bonne heure (6h00). et puis, je prendrai le bus qui me prendrai à makati pour moins que 2 heures. ça fait 50 pesos. la circulation est lourde toujours. makati est très urbain. nous n'avons pas une cantine mais la ville est pleine des 7-11s et mini-stops. les gens-ci marchent rapidement. ils ne semblent pas de s'amuser. moi, je m'amuse de prendre une promenade. il y a des walkways au-dessus de la terre (au-dessus la circulation au-dessous) et il y a aussi des walkways souterrain. il y a le système de train aussi. il y a beaucoup de fumeurs degoutant dans les rues. c'est comme exactement des villes au japon ou de grandes villes aux états-unis. je prend mon petit déjeuner et mon déjeuner à 7-11. je suis seul. mes amis me manquant bien surtout tu-sais-qui. je me demande si j'ai fait une bonne décision. :(

nous nous sommes retrouvé à max fried chicken au midi pour le déjeuner. rico, edi, allan et moi. sunshine n'avait pas reussi à venir avec nous. ni chris qui travaille à ortigas. ni mikes qui travaille aux états-unis. ils sont été mes meilleurs amis à l'université.

toutefois, quelque choses ne changeront jamais.